Review

This holidays I must say I hadn't really ticked off all my goals on list :(

Let's see one by one hahahahax

So here is my 2013 year end holidays resolutions remember ? 

(   ) Successfully finish making my besties present

I must say I did it only half way :( as I'm always tired and sleepy and yeah it would take me forever. But at least I did half of it. Like it's so tiring searching and flipping through all those information and then yeahh my arts suck so I'd wasted like a whole stack of resources :x 

( X ) Go fishing !

I did go fishing. I just wrote a not-very-detail post here [ Sabah Life ] So what I really did is that I just hold the fishing rod and wait for the fishes to bite the bait. I don't know how to throw the fishing rod's string very far at all. And I also don't know how to reel it up when the fish bit the bait so yeah I'm pretty much useless hahahahax

( X ) Learn to swim freestyle

I learnt it not long ago. Like a month ago hahahahax. It's quite easy but I had never have the time to go practice it again.

( X ) Be the first to say hi to someone

I did ! Hahahahax I think there is a few as I went to this camp not long ago, you can see the also not-very-detail post here [ Survivor Camp ]

( X ) Be friendly to kids

In the camp again, there is this pastor's kid that I know quite some time ago. Their family come to our house quite often but my mum is the one playing with them hahahahaha. And that day she'd to go back to her room and I asked her whether she wants me to bring her and she immediately said yes :O And she kept on talking to me but I seriously don't understand what is she talking about HAHAHAHA

( X ) Finish building my tiny weeny shoebox dream house

I did of course hahahax. But it isn't that successful as I'd only done the major one not the minor one. But I'm not really planning to continue doing it hahahahx as it is really harder than I thought especially those plants :/

(   ) Make new friends from mummy's hometown

No, as I am always playing with my cousin hahahahax even in church I'd also hide in a corner HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

(   ) Watch all childhood cartoons

I watched part of it as it really is bad watching cartoons everyday, later mummy scold hahahahax. But I must feel proud that I had watched the whole series of 'The Land Before Time' !

(   ) Learn guitar

No I hadn't done that although there is two guitars in my house now hahaha. One is my bro's, one is mine. But my guitar's string is made from metal while my bro's are nylon. So when I played his, my finger goes very pain; but when I play mine, it goes painer. I couldn't put any stuff on my fingertip as it will lose it's sensitivity when I'm playing piano :(

(   ) Finish doing my piano Grade 5 theory book

No hahahahahx. As usually, I hate theory but I prefer practical so yeahh :P

(   ) Memorize the ot and nt books in the bible's arrangement

I should really find time for this. I found a good way to memorize it, it's either to sing it (Chinese version) or to memorize this story (passage actually)

" Our journey began at Genesis through Exodus. On the way, we saw Leviticus recording the Numbers of people at Deuteronomy, while Joshua was waiting at the beautiful gate for Judges to see Ruth calling loudly "Samuel, Samuel" . At a stage, the, first and second Kings of Chronicles were coming to visit Ezra, Nehemiah and Esther for the misfortune of Job, their brother. Then they noticed that Mr. Psalms was teaching his children Proverbs concerning Ecclesiastes and Songs of Solomon. This coincided with the period that Isaiah and Jeremiah were engaged in Lamentation for Ezekiel and Daniel their friend. By that time, Amos and Obadiah were not around. Three days later, Hosea, Joel and Jonah traveled in the same ship with Micah and Nahum to Jerusalem . More

also, Habakkuk visited Zephaniah who introduced him to Haggai a friend of Zechariah whose cousin is Malachi. Immediately after the old tradition, Matthew, Mark, Luke and John got involved in Acts with the Romans who were behaving like the Corinthians, who were also always at loggerhead with the Galatians. At that time too, the Ephesians realizing that the Philippians were close to the

Colossians, suggested to the Thessalonians that they should first of all see Timothy who had gone to the house of Titus to teach Philemon his younger brother how to read and write Hebrew. On hearing, James asked Peter to explain to him how the three Johns have disclosed to Jude the Revelation of our Lord, Jesus Christ. That's Great. "

( X ) Be a villager, play like one

I think I did with my cousin. It's fun and yeahh I hope those time would stay forever :') I'm lazy to speak about the details for this. You can read it in my last few blog post or the link above :)

( X ) Learn to tolerate and to accommodate others

I guess I did as yeahh both my little cousin sister are hard to control. The youngest one in Sabah is like so young and what she want will usually be granted and yeahhh it's hard to accept at first but as time goes on, I guess it's okayy ? xD As for the other one, I don't know why, but her mood isn't so good lately so yeahh as she is one of my closest cousin, I must be the one saying sorry :/

( X ) Understand and spend more time with Rover

I must said I tried but he is really, really hard to be understand hahahahax, but at least I tried so yeahhh I consider this as a yes :P

(   ) Do more researches

I didn't have time to do that. You can see that my holiday life is so busy and when I'm not, I'm probably sleeping or surfing the net :P 

8 over 15 completed ! :D At least half of it were ticked off hahahahax

Well, the year 2013 is fascinating and awesome. But school is reopening soon and I'm sad :( I wish everyday could be a Saturday. That joy of going to church is indescribable and I also hope that there is more and more people how can have that feeling I'm having ! :D at least I won't feel selfish that way and more people would know God and serve him as our only savior :) 

Okayy thank you so much to everyone who had made the year 2013 an awesome one and I hope that I could also use this chance to apologize to those I've hurt directly or accidentally especially xx.

Happy New Year ! 

I hope the year 2014 would also be a wonderful and blessed one :)

Fabulous four

Christmas I said earlier that there would be no more post this year, but no, I'm not done yet HAHAHAHAHA

My cousin did come YAY ! Most importantly the youngest one didn't HAHAHAHAHA I'M SO BAD. We were always called as the famous five by others but now we are just the fabulous four (my idea of naming it HAHAHAHAHA) *still so bad*. I'm starting to have the feeling of the life of four of us before she was born *I'm baddddd*. Think the bright side, she got tuition what. So I'm not that bad, it's her future she is holding right ?

So yeahh, we spent Christmas in Sunway Pyramid. It's boring. P/s : The famous five hates shoppings but love food so the reason we go out are for food, food and food HAHAHAHAHA. So we went to eat Papa John Pizza. Splendidlicious and I'm so full. I ate like half a regular pizza yeapp I'm fat but it's just three pieces of pizza what. My cousin and my bro ate the whole pizza each LOL. Fat :P

HAHAHAHAHA 

Okayy, so after eating. We went walking around the mall. Our mums like window shoppings so much that we had spend a total hour on that :( When it comes to the time to go home, trust me, we were more than happy HAHAHAHAHAHA 

So the night goes on with watching movies and surfing the net. 

Oh yeahh, our fun Christmas night is on Christmas Eve. My mum invited some of the church member so we can have a small gathering together. We chat till late midnight and we also did a simple countdown. And everyone will get a Christmas gift ! How fun it is :D

As for the past Thursday (one day after Christmas) , we went to Tanjung Sepat. Of course, my cousin (Jiejie) wasn't satisfy with it. As she was planning to go to a water theme park HAHAHAHA. So of course she is disappointed as Tanjung Sepat is more of a fisherman's village. 

Seeing my cousin being so sad, I told her there were good tasty candies there. And easy enough, she managed to be happy and at least okayy to follow us there.

We reached there around 1 hour plus later. And we went to have lunch first. I don't know what luck is it. The candy store is closed HAHAHAHAHA. The restaurant we went always (actually we came to Tanjung Sepat for only twice) is closed and the candy store is opposite of it. So we went to another restaurant and of course my cousin was sad of the candies HAHAHAHAHA.  

See those colorful lollipop candies below ? Those are the candies I'm talking about

Seeing her sad is so funny. All she know is eat. So see sit (in Hakka it means very 贪吃, something like being esurient). So I went to ask someone about the candy and yes there is another place that sells it. When I told her this good news, she was like immediately stood up and ask me where. Too see sit.

So we did bought the candies and trust me all of us bought two of while my see sit cousin bought like 8 of it. Her reason was to give the missing famous five member but trust me we had ate all of it with just a remaining of two left yesterday HAHAHAHAHA. So we went to a Pau shop to buy Pau. And then we went to a mushroom shop and Kuan's wellness. They were so happy in the Kuan's wellness place as there is rabbits running around everywhere. That's where when my father suggest us to go Farm in the city.

The next day, we did went there. It's quite fun especially for them as Singaporeans seldom had a chance to meet face to face and also to touch and pet all these animals so yeah they are all excited always. 

They personally like the chicks and bunnys the most. We walked like two whole rounds just for those animals. 

As for that night, it's a total blast. 

My cousin brother is quite addicted to computer games and he is being all cruel and bad that he always play violent games and he won't feel sad when an actor of a movie got tortured awfully. 

So I told my cousin sister (two years younger than me) who is sleeping with me at night that he will be a killer next time and he will kill you. With all the persuading and describing, she became so afraid that she can't fall asleep. I'm actually okay with that but she said she want to fall asleep before I do. So yeah, that will take me lots of time :/ So I ended up changing the topic to something better and yeapp that nightmare of hers ended fast but by then it's already midnight and I'm so tired. But it's funny joking around with her and it's consider a mission accomplished though HAHAHAHAHA.

Yesterday, we went church. Nothing much happened except for this.

There is this guy who gave me a Christmas gift. 

It all starts like this. I was rinsing the bowls (my personal favorite voluntary work hahahahax) before lunch start. And what happens is, when I was taking the stack of bowls out from the kitchen to the hall, my friend (two years younger than me) called me and told me that this guy want to give me something. I was shocked obviously. That's why I tried to decline it by saying I'm busy. She kept on persuade me that it's just a 1 min thing. But yeapp I don't want :P

So when I finished washing all of it with my bro and some of my friends (actually this job are usually done by all boys and 1 girl HAHAHAHAHAHA ) I went out and that girl just now came towards me holding that present saying that's for me. I was like woahhh don't want larhh. 

I kept on declining it and then she was gone HAHAHAHA. And then something really weird happened, the guy himself come and gave me the gift. Obviously, I decline him too. But he ended with I put at your place (in the hall) arhh. And I was like ok ok. But my plan was also to give him back. Then his sister came (same age with me) and I don't know how to decline her as she said that they (she and her bro together) buy already. Then I accept it as it was given by a girl at least hahahahah. 

But then I suddenly thought that it is the guy's idea as he bought 13 gifts for some of the church member (including me) and they kinda like stick those names on it. So yeah, the reason why I don't accept it is that it's his birthday on Christmas and he gave people gift (although it also includes his sister's share). The second thing is that he is two years younger than me so yeah I feel very bad that a little boy gave me a gift (although he isn't consider a boy anymore). The third thing is I barely know him, the first time I saw him is in the camp two weeks ago. And I don't think I had even talked to him before. Even his sister that I had also first met her since then, I'm not sure whether I had ever talk like more than 10 sentences with her. The forth thing is that people who received the gift, I mean most of them had given him gift. 

So when I'm about to go home, I gave that present to one of my friend and I told her to return it to him after I left the church. So I had to find an excuse and finally the excuse is that I feel bad receiving a gift from him when it's his birthday and that if he really insisted on giving me, we would exchange gifts (I go buy one then) then I would feel better.

So when I'm about to go home, I went to call my friend (she follow our car back). And I said goodbye and thank you to them LOL. 

When I reach home, some of them complain to me on why I don't want to accept their gift. And they told me that they were very disappointed. I felt so guilty that I went to inbox them a whole long post of apologize. And luckily they don't feel as angry as I thought. Luckily :) but I don't really trust them as there is really a lot people telling me that they are sad. So yeahh, I guess I got to owe them something. But I seriously don't know what to give them :(

Then we went shopping yesterday night. Ate pepper lunch in 1 Utama with them and my cousin (jiejie) was kinda jealous as she is a vegetarian and that it smells too awesome HAHAHAHA 

Oh yeahh, my cousins went back just now. Kinda sad. Trust me my eyes were kinda swollen and red not because I cried. It's just that I've slept really less time these few days. Like we always chitchat till midnight. So yes don't judge how weird I look when you see me hahahahax.

Being with them is fun. Simple little things made us happy and made us each an awesome memory xD

Soyasauce :P

沙滩上的一对脚印

一个简短的小见证...

在一个晚上，我做了一个梦，梦见我与主漫步沙滩。又见到我一生的每个片段在空中掠过。

每个片段里面，我都注意到沙滩上出现的脚印。有时出现两对脚印，有时却仅有一对。

这困扰着我，因为我注意到，在我生命中低潮的时期，当我正遭受痛苦、悲伤或失败的时候，却只能看到仅仅一对脚印，所以我向上帝祷告，

"主啊，您曾经应许过，当我立志跟从您，您便一生一世与我同行。可是我却发现，在我最艰难的时期，沙滩上只留下一对脚印。我真不明白，为何在我最需要您的时候，您却偏偏要离我而去？"

主就这样回答我说 : "这些年当你看到只有一对脚印的时候，我的孩子，其实那时是我背着你在前行。"

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在世上的任何一件事，都附有上帝的旨意

嗯，我承认我很幸福，非常幸福我能认识这位上帝。

上帝在我身上行了许许多多的奇迹，上帝的恩典真是够我用。

就说学业吧！

我呢，向来都非常懒惰读书，都常常爱抱着那种 "明天还有时间" 的观念

就这样，时间一天，一天的过去。等到还剩一个星期了才会开始害怕。但，我还是敌不过想睡觉的想法。

哈哈哈，我很懒惰吧！ :P

我非常庆幸自己能出生在一个基督教的家庭。虽然说，我爸爸并不是，但我妈妈培育我们的方式都非常棒。因着她，我们的基督教背景都非常好，对自己的信仰都非常坚定。

每个星期六，我们都会到教会。无论如何都一定会去。

问题来了，在我 6 年级时，我们学校在星期六是有补习班。全校的 6 年级生都被逼参与。当然，我要求了我们教会的牧师替我写了一封信。理说当然的，老师当然不接受嘛。也理说当然的，她也骂了我。还甚至因为这样，我的道德分数也被他扣分了。我当然很不甘心啊。难道要守上帝的诫命这么痛苦吗？难道要上教会是件没道德的事吗？

我不明白为什么，我只能忍着泪，把她一切的话听进去。

她甚至告诉了校长这件事。副校长也见过了。副校长告诉我她自己也是一名基督徒。但基督徒偶尔不上教会是不用紧的。这什么道理啊？她说上帝自然会明白的，我们不是应该在任何事上都把上帝放为第一吗？我们在小事上不忠心，在大事上怎么忠心呢？

我下定决心要跟谁上帝，任何事都无法阻挡我。她要怎么说也罢，我可不会怎么容易改变我对上帝的忠诚。

因为，圣经这么说

"当纪念安息日 ，守为圣日 。" 出埃及记 20：8

老师还是不甘心啊，她说我这人非常不听话。理由是这样的，我的华语向来都非常不好，顶多能获得 B 而已，身为在精英班的我们，怎可以获得 B 呢 ？ 精英班都向来给大众看上，都觉得我们是超人，非要不可获得全 A 。

所以呢，举办星期六补习班的原因是要让那些对某科比较弱的学生加把劲。

爸爸也不满意啊，爸爸都不是基督徒，怎么明白嘛。他告诉我们如果我们这次的考试中，考得不好那就千万别渴望再有机会去教会了。

很挣扎。

就这样，老师对我彻底死了心，爸爸也对我失望了。我心疼，但我能做什么呢？

唯有忍吧，上帝必定会带领，他一定有自己的旨意。

拿小六评估考试成绩当天，我明白了。上帝真的这么伟大，原来他都一直看到我所做的一切。

我竟然获得全科 A 。老师也明白了，她并没说太多，只恭喜了我。

奇迹，什么是奇迹？对我而言，奇迹就是我们到绝路时，上帝却替我们铺好了路。我们要放弃时，上帝背着我们继续走。

这就是上帝对我们的爱，上帝所行的奇迹。

如果不是上帝，我敢说就算我上了星期六的补习班，也无法获得这么样的成绩。

没有办法啊，我的华语就是这么差，获得 B 就算好了。我平时都处在 B- 及 C 的之间。

今年，上帝又为我立了个美好的奇迹。

话说呢，我从初一到现在（初三）都有多报考多一个科目 - 华语。原因也不知为什么。

明知自己的华文科不好，还偏去报考。有点傻傻，愣愣这样的感觉吧 哈哈哈 我自己也这么觉得 

我没愣到这样，今年会在 PMR (政府考试）报考华语的原因，则是因为全班会华语的都有报考华语。面子关系吧，虽然说自己的华语是全班差不多最差的。哈哈哈 这比较像傻了吧。

拿了后，真的真的很后悔。我敢说超级后悔，历史重演啊，自己的华文也是那样，不是 C 也是 B- 

说实话，真的有点历史重演，记得在小六评估考试的前一个预考，我一个 A 也没考获，这次的预考也差不多，但好像有2，3 个 A 。

拿成绩当天，说实话，我挺自信的，怎么说呢，我只觉得自己的 华语会拿 B。其实，华语 B 已经算很好了。原因是，我作文选的题目大概是要写信给一位好友，并告诉他课外活动的好处。其实这个题目，我的参考书内有，但是在考试前一天时，我并没有想到这样的题目会出，因此就没心要去读它了。后悔也来不及啦，就随随便便想了几个大纲就写进去啦。

这不是观点，重点是我的书法写得超烂 哈哈哈

我的书法一向来都不好，应该说是爸爸的基因吧！爸爸的美术也不行，至于华语不好的原因也是因为爸爸不会华语。还好我有遗传到爸爸其他科目不错的良好基因 哈哈哈

还记得，我还剩最后 20 分钟写书法。我 10 分钟 就写完了，但剩下的 10 分钟并不够用啊。因为那墨汁一直都无法干。在老师说时间到的时候，我做了个决定。我直接把那墨汁未干的书法纸压在一张白纸上，我知道这样会破坏中楷的艺术，但我也没法啊，就这个方法它才能干嘛。也是因为这样，我的书法变得一团团黑黑的。我自己也搞不懂是什么。就这样，我把它交上去了。

回到拿成绩当天，我当然不渴望自己的名字能被念出成为获得全 A 的考生。在我拿成绩时，我整个人呆住了。我说不出话来。我忍着不哭。我走去爸爸面前，给他递了我的成绩单。爸爸看了看，说我做得很好。我用力摇了摇头。爸就坚持说失去两科不用紧。这怎么不要紧啊？我的马来文可说是挺有信心的咧，我读了这么多天的书，牺牲了自己的睡眠，每天早上 4 时准时起床温习功课，却获得了如往常的成绩，我怎可接受得到呢？

我的生活技能，可说是不错的。我承认我爱读 accounts ，所以我特别爱生活技能。虽然有一半的生活技能是有关电子、缝衣、水管等之类基本的东西，但，有 accounts 就好啦。我每天都读生活技能。为了拿 A ，我们只必须对 30/50 就行了，我的功课那里救了我呀。难道30 题也对不了吗？

想着，想着两行眼泪慢慢流了下来。

我承认我是爱哭包，但我真的忍了。这些泪水是我多个月忍受下来的。我这么多个月的努力难道就白费了吗？难道霎那间，我该感到绝望吗？

痛苦，痛哭

我就这样眼泪留着回家，人人安慰我，我也听不进。表姐、表妹一家人走了，我也不怎么的。他们走之前安慰着我，一定可以进 pure science ，我也只点了点头，眼泪还是一直流着。

哭得眼睛好肿好肿，好像好久没哭得这么惨，这么狼狈了。

算了，哭也没用了。心里一直这么说道。

但心还是这么碎。爸爸妈妈看到我那样，心也是很疼，不停的告诉我 我已经做得很好了。

但他们始终不明白的是 我考获这样的成绩 是我对不起他们啊。

他们安慰我 我哭得越惨 心越疼 。

爸爸妈妈，您们这么辛苦养大我、这么辛苦培育我，我却什么都给不了您们。

您们当然说自己满意，但我知道您们对我的渴望没这么小。您们都深要我长大后读医科。我明白，我从小体弱多病，甚至连我出生在这个世上都已是上帝所为我行的一个奇迹，父母亲希望我能借着我的经历去关心有需要的人。爸爸妈妈都一直希望我能当妇产科医生或牙医。但我觉得在这次的 PMR 考试中，以我这次的成绩，我是进不了 pure science。爸爸妈妈并不介意，他们说他们会供我读书。只要我肯读，肯尽力就好。我听了眼泪不断地流。我能怎样？我竟然连这样的 8 科都搞不好，父母亲辛辛苦苦地去赚钱，我却怎么也不考好成绩。爸爸妈妈说我做得很棒，连华文也能拿 A。

这我才想到，这全都是上帝的旨意。

我记得我曾说过，如果我能在这次华文考试中考获 A ，我就一定会替上帝做见证。我是没有可能会拿 A 的，第一 : 这次的华语考试真的很难，我从来没遇过这么难的题目，甚至连报纸也刊登说这次的华文太难了 ; 第二 : 就像我说过了，我的华语并不好。

是，想想下也是，上帝在我觉得不可能的事上行了奇迹。把一切不可能的变得可能。

在八个科目中，我获得了 6 个 A , 2 个 B 。

除了马来文与生活技能之外，我别的都拿 A 。

上帝让我有这么好的父母亲，好让他们从小到大都与我说英语，因为有他们我的英文拿很少拿 B 。 英文因此是我的强项，甚至连辩论或在别人欺负我时，我都会用英文 哈哈哈。这都成为了父母亲给我的其中一个保护自己的武器吧。

上帝让我的数学拿 A ，全都是因为它让我有个这么好的数学老师，还记得我从小四起，都非常少交数学功课，原因是因为我不喜欢那些老师一给就给学生们很多功课，一不给就好几天没功课，但过了好多个星期，好几个练习才会跟学生们收功课；更不喜欢那些老师只会给学生功课但却从来不教学生。这个老师可不同了，她每一天都会教我们，而每天上完课后，她都会给我们一些练习题。而第二天早上，她都会要我们交上前一堂课的练习。因为有这名老师，我的数学都进展得挺快的。

上帝也让我有个非常不错的地理老师，自从有她的存在后，全班的同学都不敢在她的科目拿 B 。凶的老师比较能干吧，说话都比较有控制权，没有任何一个学生不敢不听她的。

上帝让我在一个月前，懂得反省，懂得知道时间不多了，该读书了。就这样，我开始读历史。我记得我最后一次在历史考试中拿 A 好像是两年前的事了。我读得好辛苦，好累，读得想放弃时，都有上帝的带领及眷顾。

上帝让我的科学拿 A ，也是上帝的旨意。我记得在小学的时候，科学都一直是我的强项。但在我就读初中一时，我的科学老师怀孕去生孩儿了。因此，我都没什么真正上到初一的科学。我记得在年终考试时，我整张考卷到不会。幸好，英文救了我 哈哈哈，就有种回答英文题的感觉。那次的考试我获得了 50 多分。对，我因那次的考试，彻底不喜欢科学。幸好，我爱biology 这方面的科学。虽然爱 biology，但我比较喜欢那些有关人体的科学。我对植物及细胞这一方面就比较少兴趣。我得感谢主，我告诉他我不爱科学 B 组（书写），因为要知道的资料太多了。我不爱植物及细胞，我更不爱 chemistry。Physics 及人体之类的我才喜欢。我知道我这么想很没可能，没有可能一个考试是没有考 chemistry，也没有任何一个考试是没有考植物与细胞的。上帝连这样的祷告也垂听，连一个有关植物肌细胞的问题都没在科学 B 组出现。Chemistry 的问题有出，但那些问题我全都读了。我区区只读了那几题，那几题多数都出了，别的那些一点都没出。

华语就刚说了，我是没有可能会拿 A 的。

就这样，我想通了。感谢上帝，虽然我挺失望自己还差两科就拿全 A 。但回想起来，上帝有他的旨意。

我的生活技能拿到 B 应该是因为上帝要我别这么骄傲吧。我对accounts这么有兴趣，我可是教别人的咧。哈哈哈 要用我其中比较爱的科目换不要骄傲这个道德价值可不简单啊。

至于马来文呢，其实爸爸妈妈看到我这么伤心，有试过叫我上诉。我告诉我自己如果我的马来文理解错超过 15 题，我就不上诉。怎知我错了 16 题。应该是上帝告诉我不用上诉了。拿 B 也罢。上帝借着这个 B 一定有他的旨意存在。别要求太高吧，有时有些事情付出了不一定会立刻得到结果吧。又是跌倒了就该站起来，跌得越伤，就会获得更多的经历吧。也是因为这样我才会感到伤心，才会想上帝对我说做的一切。始终，如果我的马来文拿 A 了，华文拿 B 了。我也不会怎么样嘛。这马来文拿 B 就像在提醒我上帝的恩典真的够我们用。

这次的圣诞节，本以为考获全 A 将是最好的礼物。后来觉得这个礼物并不怎么好，搞得我考出这样的成绩。后来我才明白，原来这一切都有上帝的旨意，这才是最美好的礼物啊。

上帝从来不会放弃我们，他一直都在背着我们面对前面的一切道路。

我写这份文章花了好久好久的时间。我们拿成绩当天是19号。至今才写完。写这篇文章当中流了很多泪，哭得好累好累，心酸得很。我真的真的无法想象自己如果有机会在台上分享这见证时的情况会如何。
这将多数成为我今年的最后一个 blog post 吧，明年再见 :)

15122013 till yesterday

Camping memorable , fun and awesome

-Not the camera man so no photos this time , 

and trust me I won't look great as I'm really, really crazy-

生存者

Not much details this time, but trust me, it's almost the best camp ever. I would really regret for not going. Oh btw I found out that I like crying but I have a really thick face. So yeah it's really faceless to cry. Oh yeahhh, crying due to the touched words, thinking, and everything. 

I don't know what to say, as the details are really too many.

Really learn a lot. I must say there are times that I think that I'm inconsiderate. I should spend more time doing some self devotion, reading the bible etc.

I'm also glad that my cousins are around. Participating this camp. Really really glad that all of us had made a choice to love God more. Serve him as our savior. 

I would go back the year after next year. I definitely will. And by then, our church is the one planning and working it, so it will be awesome ! Although i will be the worker and one of the planner by then hahahahax. No regrets sia.

Here is the theme song for this camp. It is composed by a church member. So you couldn't find it anyway. That's why I would write the notes here !

全副军装 

A major 6/8

 3  4  5  3  4  5  5  3  3  2  1
主有未了的话要告诉我们

 1  6  6  6  2   2  3  4  5
用真理束腰 公义护心

 6  6  7  7  7  5  1
穿上福音的鞋子

 1  4  3  5  3  2
在磨难日站稳

 3  4  5  3  4  5  5  3  3  2  1 

主已将全副军装赐予我们

 1  6  6  6  2   2  3  4  5

那信心盾牌 圣灵宝剑
                     .   .

 6  6  7  7  7  2  1

戴上救恩的头盔
     .       .   .   .
 6  1  6  1  2  1
抵挡仇敌诡计

 .
 1  7  6  6  4  2
那日子快来到

 3  4  5  5  3  6
你是否预备好
             .
 5  6  6  1  7. 7  6  7  5
你是否愿意为主而战
                         .   .
 6  6  7  7  7  7  2  1
穿上主賜全副军装
      .       .   .   .
 6  1  6  1  1  2
成为刚强的人

 .

 1  7  6  6  4  2

那日子快来到

 3  4  5  5  3  6

你是否预备好

             .

 5  6  6  1  7. 7  6  7  5 

你是否愿意为主而战

                         .   .

 6  6  7  7  7  7  2  1 

警醒不倦多方祷告

      .       .   .   .

 6  1  6  1  2  1

成为最终生存者

P/s : I haven't got the chords for this song yet, probably a little of A, E and F# ?

Loneliness

I'm afraid that I will be a book that no one reads,

Music that no one listens to anymore,

I'm afraid that I will be abandoned Iike a movie playing in an empty theater. 

091213

Yangshuo The place I'd made a choice on quitting eating chicken.

Weird starting huh ? xD
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I've just arrived KL ! :D Guilin is awesome, partly is about the weather and the food xD and it's autumn, cooling autumn, or I could say autumn that is about to enter winter.

Guilin's temperature : 5°C the lowest and 13 °C the highest
Days of stays : 6 days, 5 nights (from 07/12 to 12/12)
Places that had been visited : Guilin, Yangshuo and Longji (actually Yangshuo and Longji is in Guilin but who cares ? xDDD )
Comments : Beautiful place, cooling weather, wonderful food ! Splendidlicious

Let's talk about a bit of this and that. Guilin's food is indeed awesome especially the 桂林米粉 and 菜花 ! Translated as Guilin mihun and idk what kind of veggie HAHAHAHAH. Both these dishes can only be eaten in Guilin as the mihun is their local speciality and 菜花 can only be planted over there. Of course other places also may have that kind of veggie but it is not as sweet and delicious as it may be in Guilin, maybe because of the weather and soil ?

Guilin mihun (Doesn't looks like mihun to me actually hahahahax)

菜花 (took this picture in Longji)

But the thing I don't like about Guilin's food is that they sell horse meat and dog meat in any other ordinary restaurant. That's so torturing and I swear I would never try any of those. Both of them are like my favorite type of animals/pets sia T^T
Other than that, they also eat any kind of animals, almost anything anyone could imagine except monkey. No kidding, I also don't know why.

As for why I quitted eating chicken, ermmm actually it's simple. I prefer fish HAHAHAHAHAHA
Okayyy, the reason why is that on that day, we went to one of Yangshuo home cook restaurant. It's really healthy and the food there is so delicious.
That is the place where I got a really really long cut on my right face too :/
Straight to the point, the speciality of that restaurant is that the veggies, ducks and chickens are planted and reared all by themselves so they have a little garden beside

So everything goes like this, I saw a chicken that was running around a minute ago being cath by the leg upside down back to the kitchen. And after 30 minutes, it turns into a plate of dish that is awaiting for us to eat.

Can you imagine that ? :(

It's like I'm a murderer. Killing a chicken just for my current satisfactory or I could say for my temporary fullness. There is a life in there. It died because of me. If I'd give up eating it, I could seriously saved lots of life. Those life are precious, they have feelings, they can feel the pain. It's like killing yourself to let someone to eat. Will it be fair ? 

I've been trying my best to quit it, I hope it really works 

A mixture of happiness and fun

Joy I'd been laughing so hard that my stomach stiches and smiling non stop that I didn't even know that it was me. I believed that it will be a beatutiful day to be remembered in my life :)

There is this NEWSTART week which is held by my church for this entire week. I assumed that they had enough youth to help out in this program but the day before yesterday I'd made a decision to participate it for a day as yeapp, for the sake of fun mostly HAHAHAHAHAX

So my mum called up a church member to come and fetch me, my bro and a friend of mine who lived not far away from us. We reached the church around 11 ? Which is quite late as all of the groups had left except for two groups (which is our group and the other group that is waiting for confirmation of enough people). So this group aka group 6 actually consist of 4 people, but with us 'childish people', it turned into 7. They were actually planning to push us to another group as we had only one saloon car but too bad they had already 6 people and they also had only one saloon car.

Lucky enough, we were thin hahahahahx (a little narcissist here). 5 of us cramped behind. Whew, imagine that. So my friend sit all the way to the left side of the back seats of the car (she is sitting backward), then till me sitting forward, then till my brother sitting backward, then till this guy from China (around the age of his early 20s ?) sitting frontward, then till another lady from China (around the age of 30 plus ?) sitting backward. So it's a back, front, back, front position LOL, the reason is to save space hahahax.

We are heading towards a list of houses for some visitation. Around 3 houses on the list for that morning actually. The job they had gave three of us is to just listen and don't chat too much (personally between the three of us) in people's house and secondly to shake hands with them and lastly to remember their name. I could call ourselves more or less quite useless HAHAHAHA.

We reached to a house first. However, the aunty was busy making breakfast for her grandchildren. So we promised to come back in the afternoon. Later on, we went to another house, after lots of waiting and calling outside the gate, a quiet looking lady (around 17-20 years old) came out. We started asking her about her mother or grandmother. Then, she said that her mother actually went back to her hometown and not planning to come back here again. Retirement wish maybe ? We started chatting with her and get to know more about her, we introduced ourselves to her too. So this girl is called Kelly and she lives alone here as she will be working in KL. To avoid her from freaking out, we promised to come back again tomorrow ! :D The last house on list actually doesn't have an address, all we had is the phone number, after lots of tries, the person over there still doesn't pick up the phone. So yeah our mission accomplished !

We went back and guess what, the group that goes out the latest and comes back the fastest goes to Group 6, and that is us. But we are the only group that has visitation to work on in the afternoon, so yeahh we are still not that useless.

After lunch, of course we did remember our promise. However, the group leader of our group just came back as he need to buy some gifts for those new comers and visiter who will be coming that night. So yeah, they were planning to play a game. The game goes like this, everyone would be sitting on a chair in a circle. And in the middle will be a person (his job is like a monkey, you know that game ?) standing and asking anyone who is sitting down. He/she will be asking "Do you like your neighbors?" The person who is being asked can give three answers actually.

1. I do like my neighbors.
So when that person say so, the two person sitting beside him/her had to quickly shift places while the so call monkey would try his/her best to snatch their places. The remaining person who is standing would be 'punished' by presenting a talent show, they can sing, dance, tell a story, tell jokes and so on.

2. I don't like my neighbors.
When that person say so, the questioner aka the monkey will ask him/her back "Who's neighbor do you like ?" In this case, the person need to point someone from the group. The second when he/she do so, the two person beside he/she and the two person (who is pointed) beside he/she got to quickly shift places. Again, the remaining person who is standing would be 'punished'

3. I like all my neighbors.
Everyone in the group change places.

Actually, I'm not that willing to play that game as I am not really good in snatching places. And furthermore, I really have no idea what to do when it comes to me being the only remaining one standing.

So I found a really good excuse saying that we got to go for further visitation later and yeapp I don't want to suddenly get off from the game as I think it's quite kill joy that way.
HAAAAA I successsss
*okayy ignore my childishness
So after our group leader finished eating, we did went back to that house. I must admit, I'm quite useless at first. As I really don't know how to communicate with people. So me and my bro just sat there and watch tv HAHAHAHAHA. While the others are chatting with her and helping her to massage.

So the next house we went is also a quite elderly lady's house. And I'm quite useful by then lolz. As yeapp, I went to help her massage, I must say I don't know how so I simply do it HAHAHAHAHA.

That's all I would talk about the house visitation. To chat with an elderly, one mustn't be to straight forward and must always try to listen to them and to understand them. Yeapp, I'd learnt a lot.

When we came back, it's dinner time. Skip skip skip. After dinner, we were hanging out act cool in the hall hahahahax. So suddenly someone suggested to play a game, that moment me and my friend got so enthusiast and we were like "YESSSS" so loud.

We started to play this game called 'Killer'. I've played a game called 'Werewolf' before this year, actually we played it quite often in class when teacher is not around. I really thought that game was exactly the same just that the title is different.

But then, it's a different game and yeapp, it's so fun. But I don't think it's suitable to play in schools as it is quite weird yeahh. The game goes like this, everyone would sit in a circle and you were given a card, it's either villager, killer, doctor or police. So we need to hold hands together and hide the hands behind your body to prevent people from seeing. And there is only one killer, one doctor and one police. So the killer's job is to choose who to kill. And killer 'kill' people by pressing/squeezing how many times on the hand of the person next to you. And the person who is pressed will continue pressing. For example, I'm the killer and I want to kill a person further than me by 5 person on my right. So I would squeeze or press 5 times on my right person's hand. And the person on my right who received my signal would press only 4 times of his right person's hand. And that person who just received the signal, would press 3 times. Then to two. And when you received a 1 times signal, you're dead.

So you would hardly know who is the killer unless he/she is making a really big movement. As for the doctor, you can't actually let the killer know who are you or you will be dead. As you could revive anyone. How to revive them ? By giving them some eye signal. That's why the killer want to kill you hahahax. So doctors have to be smart in doing their job. As for police, they couldn't die no matter how many times the killer kill them. A police can accused the killer any time in the game.
You can never imagine how weird those adults passed by and the way they look at us like we have mental problem like that.

So the game looks simple but it is really fun ! Hahahahax

So that's all of the fun part the day before yesterday.
Then later was the health talk at night. I wouldn't say much about it as I might afraid this blog post would go longer and longer.

So yesterday, I couldn't participate the morning's house visitation program and yeap I must admit I'm quite disappointed. Oh my, I've changed a lot. The reason why I couldn't join yesterday is that me and my bro is going to present two piano duet pieces in the church next Saturday as our special number. The first song is 'This is my father's world' which we had played before once in the church, the second piece is 'He leadeth me' and we hadn't even played that song before. We started learning the new piece on Monday in our piano lessons. We started that late because we were in Sabah and yeah for about two weeks and earlier than that we were in Singapore for also one week plus and yeappp, time really flies lolz. So on Tuesday, we never even practiced as we had forgotten all about it and we were busy cleaning the house. The day before yesterday, we went out the whole day for the NEWSTART program (the day I've been talking about above) and if we don't practice yesterday we would be in dead shit as we are leaving for China tomorrow till next Thursday. 

So that's why, we need to practice it in the morning actually we just practice less than an hour. Yeapp both of us are extremely pro in being all lazy and likes to like do things on the last minute lol. Twinzey spirit HAHAHAHA.

So we had our piano lesson replacement for our pass Sabah trip yesterday evening. And trust me TWINZEY SPIRIT IS WORKING ! We did quite well. As its just some hours of practicing. (maybe less than 2 hours ?) and guess what we didn't even remember to brought back the book yesterday which made us no book to practice today. Guess Twinzey spirit had to really work next Friday during our last practicing. Whew, it really is the fastest practicing in history sia. The longest we once took is to practice a piece in like more than half a year. No kidding.

Skip skip skip.

So yesterday night, we did participate the health talk program. When I reached there, I was finding my friend who reached there earlier and participate all the programs including the house visitation :( And she was busy typing a recipe and I saw her facing some Microsoft problems. Which I ended up being so kind that I helped her finish all of it. It really took me some time to edit this and that. Until when I finish doing, the program is already half way through. Never mind :) 

When I'm downstairs, I found out that there is no more space :O Luckily the program was held in the second hall and yeap you can go and take extra chairs. So I sat in a weird condition of infront of a high stack of chair. And beside it is my bro and beside my bro is a friend of mine who is like 2 years elder than me and beside him is my mum. So I'm half comfortable and half uncomfortable. The friend of mine kept on offer me his place. But I refused it, he is the one who came first what. Rethink about it, I must say I've changed a lot. So yeahh, it did went on. Until my friend who I've helped just now came down and we sat together so it's not that uncomfortable anymore lol. 

So yeah, we were in the last row but hey it's fun ! Trust me, we had been the loudest group of people HAHAHAHAHA

Those jokes lol

They were talking about charcoal and yeapp, they talk about the healing of charcoal and my bro heard a Chinese medical word that he couldn't understand which is '鸡眼' and he asked my mum (my mum was a former nurse) and the guy between them was like 'I know, it's '斗鸡眼' HAHAHAHAHAHA He even acted the action of it, we have been laughing that hard that everyone were like looking at us :x
HE IS SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHAHA kay ignore my craziness here :x

So the second thing that happened is that a guy who is a few years younger than me is adjusting the video cam infront to record and to present the actions of the person cooking infront through the projector screen. So, I guess he was testing whether the zooming works or not and he doesn't even know it is already connected to the projector infront that he zoomed into an elderly lady's face. The exact face only. HAHAHAHAHA we were laughing like we doesn't even care who is watching lol.

Honestly we laugh till our faces turned so red and the laughter so loud omgoshhhhyuppp seriously. Who cares, it really is that funny xD

After that, I did helped out a little. I was given a task that I believed I won't dare to do normally. I need to go and collect names and contact numbers from visitors who may be coming to church this Saturday. I really did change a lot, I really did. I guess maybe it's the after effect of being too cray cray laughing so much ? xD I love that feeling. So I did went and asked around. I was once those really fierce class monitor in class that I don't really care whether you want to hear or not, I would make sure that you listen to my yelling or not you are in deep trouble attitude. But this time, I went around asking them politely with a smile and also including those p(s) and q(s). I'm so glad of myself being so brave and kind. you can ignore me. That feeling of doing it makes me feel proud and happy and I've that sudden courage to quickly tick off one of my holiday goals on being the first one to say hi as I'd said so many hi(s) to so many people. I'M SO HAPPY. You may think I'm funny and weird but seriously I'm always shy and I don't really like being the first one to say hi. Even shaking hands around all the church member is a serious problem to me.

Yeappp so, I guess after such long blog post, you all could understand what I meant as yeapp most of them is just a brief through and I really apologize for the grammatically errors and whatsoever errors as I'm really lazy to read it again hahahahahx (my laziness hadn't changed yet)
#one of the longest blog post :O
Oh bother me, ignore me for being so childish and if you find this blog post boring, I also apologize for your time and energy reading it but I must say I really laugh a lot of time writing it HAHAHAHA so yeah I really did enjoyed myself. TATA for now ! ;)