Last minute

Exam is so around the corner :(

I've been only planned to study biology, additional maths, moral and history. I know it's pretty bad doing a last minute study when I seriously don't even know what is going on in the first two chapters of history and I think I'm going to face my 'death' soon when I fail to ace in it under such fierce teacher. She would most probably, give me extra home works etc. I'M SO DEAD NOW :/ and as for bio and additional maths, I totally aren't sure of the first few chapters. And finally for moral, I seriously doesn't pay much attention when teacher is teaching, I'm like mostly building a castle in the air :P

Kayy, this is just a short update and to also just show people out there that I'm still alive :3

shortest blogpost that had ever existed in this bloggggg

A part of my life

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“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share on your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

― Bob Marley

Those days ...

走着以前走过的路，回想起那些一起发生过的事

今天，我们红新月会提早放学。趁着自己没事做，我做了一件我以前常常做的一件事。

我走着走着，我进了食堂。这个地方似乎已成为了个陌生的地方。说实话，我犹豫了挺久的。原因是那时刚好是初中一和初中二下课的时候。要我进去，以我这高度，他们肯定认为我也在下课 -.- 想都没得想，我已被一大堆小孩子 (我承认我比他们老 2 岁) 涌进了人潮中，那种感觉好熟悉。嗯，我在我第一天上课时也有遇到这样的情况。而且眼睛的角度也好像是一样的 :( 走着走着，我看见了以前我们几个小瓜爱坐的那张长长的凳子。回想起我们以前所一起度过的快乐时光。我以前并不相信想起以前的事时，会好像看见整个情景这回事。但我今天真的真的相信了。真的会夸张到会看见那人的情况。我看见了以前我们常爱一起说别人的坏话。还甚至取了个 90 degree 的外号。我们也常隔好远的一段距离喊着对方的名字并说这个那个的 哈哈哈。那些年所做的傻事真多啊 :P

我走了一圈就出来了，食堂变了很多，它再也不会是充满着我以前回忆的它了。走了出来，我看见了以前你跟她道歉的地方。我好清楚好清楚。嗯，她在背向我们，而你在面向她，也在面向我们。你在做着你爱做的手势。

走着走着，经过了 koperasi , 以前总是会在下课还没结束前，站在它前面看人潮。你们呢，总是爱吃各种各样的零食，薯片。其中最爱的好像是 chocolatos 

又经过了我们以前的课室。我们三个坐在后面的情况。哈哈哈 真的好好笑。总是好像活在自己的世界里 (我们不是自闭症啊) 那间课室把我们 5 个人 减少至 3 个人。就这样我们成了很要好的朋友。

看着手上的手表才刚过了几分钟，这么多的＂事情＂只仅仅在几分钟发生吗 ?

算了，既然今天过得这么开心，继续这样吧 哈哈哈

我就这样跑去了图书馆，好熟悉。我们常躲在书架之间，好像这样做都没什么缘故。以前总会整班常常来图书馆，唉，现在这种事好像没发生过了 :( 

回忆起以前的事情，什么事都好像没什么变到。

Reminisce ...

Moving with wheels

Driving it drives me crazy

I roughly remember there was an afternoon last year that my twin brother who is just 15 first drive a car. HAHAHAHAHA it's really funny. Here is how it goes. My mum brought us back from school one day and she stopped infront of an optical shop. So we chose to stay in the car as the parking my mum parked is just right infront of the shop and yeahh we were all tired from school and everything. So my mum just went in for a couple of minute to get the contact lens she ordered not long ago. And suddenly my bro who is sitting beside the driver's seat hopped over to the driver's seat. So, he asked me whether should he try out. I shrugged and look at him with an unsure look. So he really did tried out. And he just moved the trigger (I freaking don't know what's that call) to the reverse mode and once he stepped the paddle. It moved all the way to the back and there is a lorry passing by. And I was laughing non stop as that extremely big 8 tan lorry horned extremely loud. My brother got really stressed out that he quickly braked the car. And I was nearly knocked (I was sitting behind the driver's seat), another inch to. So he quickly drives back to it's original position.
Those were funny memories that my parents will never know HAHAHAHA

So today my dad got an idea to let me try out and learn the basics of driving an automatic car (not manual) in a housing area as it is quite empty there. Okay I was shivering when I sat on that place. It's so freaking stress. I am extremely afraid that my carelessness would make any damage to my dad's car. So after daddy taught me all those basics. I strengthen my courage and hold the steering wheel. Dad taught me to reverse first and he asked me to step the paddle lightly. Who knows how light is light ? When I stepped it lightly (I mean really light) the car zoomed extremely fast to the back and I've forgotten there is something called the brakes that I just froze there in fear HAHAHAHAHA EPIC. Daddy quickly pulled the emergency brake. I couldn't understand how light is light, I did very light already sia.

So turning is another problem. I couldn't believe that turning needs so much of turning. Okayy the sentence should be that - when I want to turn right or left, I need to turn the steering like a lot. I am seriously too use to play those games and to turn to the right or left, with just a little turn, it will accelerate like a lot like a u turn.

Quite exciting experience as I had get used to it a little later (it rhymes lol). But still I feel a little stress here and there as I will always go to the opposite lane I ALSO DON'T KNOW WHY HAHAHAHAHA.

Awesome day !

Green eyed monster

吃醋，难为人

" 你有闻到醋味吗？好重好重的呢 ... "

初中一时，这句话总是给我们几个用来讽刺别人的话。

当年，总是这么天真。

说吃醋，但其实并不了解吃醋真正的感受是什么。当时也总是觉得容易吃醋的人好小气。

慢慢长大后，总觉得自己错了 ... 

吃醋是 normal 的

在一两年后，我终于了解了。因为，我也曾吃醋过。我也曾因她为我好友做的一点小事而不服气。我也曾因她那份 "好意" 而觉得她好假惺惺。我也曾因我好友对她说的一句谢谢而伤心过，哭过。

甚至在开学时，每当我看到她，我都会尽量不说话。

吃醋的感觉是种好难形容的痛苦。

最近，我得承认我闻到好重的醋味。你不说，我也知道。

就把她们命名为 A , B , C , D , E , F 吧。

A 是最了解我的朋友，也是我最好的朋友。我几乎什么事都爱跟她说。有时呢，不说也能知道的情况。她与我常常谈着世界所发生各种各样的奇事。常常在别人的背后说闲话。我伤心难过时，都会告诉她。

至于 B 呢，她为人不错。她是那种没意见的人，因此她什么都觉得你是对的。挺单纯又有点愣的。哈哈哈，她最容易被欺负了。

C 呢，她是那种什么事都直接说出来的人，从不绕个圈来说。认识她挺不错的，她什么事都会告诉我，最重要的是我说什么她都几乎赞同。

我好久好久以前就认识 D 了，我不算常常会见到她，也不算不常常会见到她。一个星期见面一次吧。她是我唯一比较信任的人。不是说我别人都不信任，原因是因为我怕被人出卖。有阴影吧 ! 她的人比较静，爱聆听，不爱说话。相信她不会出卖我是因为她曾被出卖过，曾因为这样而找我谈天过。我与她相处时，就都由我一个人讲，她的想法又与我差不多。

E 呢，是差不多最好玩的一个。想法一致的关系吧，什么都谈得来。我们差不都在自说自爽。她说的我到哈哈大笑，我说的她也不停地讥笑。上课到一半，就觉得好闷，就这样我们就随便开始谈天，遇到好笑的事情时，我们都会笑得比讲师的声音还大声。

F 是我认识不久的朋友。爱笑是我给她的称号。非常乐观的一个人，可因一点小小的事儿笑个不停。我觉得与她相处会很开心。有时她会做傻事，问傻话，真的好好笑。搞得我常常骂她。她又并不介意，继续在那儿笑。挺可爱的。

我真的以为有着 A , B , C , D , E , F 做我比较熟悉的朋友没什么，但直到她说的那一句话使我想了好久好久。

有一天，我没去学校。其中一个就对另一个说我没去学校的原因。其实，我早就向她通知了。那一个就说 " 我知道啊，你不知我们要成为好友了吗 ? " 

那一个就回答说 " 她是我的 "

我明白这只是个开玩笑。但如果认真想这句话。我联想到了许许多多的事。

吃醋 ... 

一定会有。

有时我会把同一个在某一个朋友发生的一件趣事告诉另一个朋友两，三次。我真的忘了我曾告诉过她。有时我会把我们一起所发生好玩既好笑的是告诉另一个朋友，我看到你似乎不怎么感兴趣。有时我只顾着与某个朋友谈天，另一个呢，就会好安静好安静。有时因为这样我们好比成了暂时几天的陌生人，等到我开口与你先说话时，你也只是 " 嗯，啊，嗯，啊 " 的这样忽略我。

我的心好难受。

吃醋，难为人。

我也明白吃醋很难受。我明白吃醋是因为那人对你很重要。

Green eyed monster - jealousy. 

啊对，大家新年快乐。别再想这些东西了。我相信久而久之，她们会明白的。始终，她们都是我的好朋友。

新的一年里，我希望我们能像往常一样，拥有着那天真并幸福的友谊。

知道我是谁的你，猜猜谁是 A , B , C , D , E , F 吧