A one day big brother

Time really flies huh ? It's been 12 years already if I didn't miscount, so how's life ?

There is this one boy or maybe a guy now that I'm always hoping to get contact to and I hope we could meet again ... I owed him something, a promise that was broken, that I hope I could fulfill it back after many years.

When I'm at my age of 4, I met him which I'm unsure of his name. I remembered that we were in Ikea. You know Ikea Småland ? It's a place where parents could leave their child at when they were doing their groceries. It's almost like a children playground but way funner than an ordinary playground, I must say it's my best childhood playground memories ever. 

Every time my parents we drop me and my brother there as their children services are safe and it's fun for us, they would usually stick a yellow sticker with my names on in case they couldn't find us when we are about to get picked up by our parents. So yeahh I don't know why I didn't thought of remembering his name by that tag.

Okayyy back to the topic, on that ordinary day, I also don't know why, me and my brother split and we went on to play on our own. Usually I would go coloring as yeahh I don't know why I like it so much although my art sucks like shit, like literally.

And at that moment, there is this little boy around my age (that time) that came over and we started making friends. IT'S REALLY HARD TO FIND A KID WHO ACTUALLY SPEAKS ENGLISH. And yeahh my mum said many people thinks I'm cute and they likes me when I'm young, luckily not now :P

I must admit that yeahh I don't really like to entertain him or making friends with him at first, so I just ignore him. But he kept on follow me, wherever I go he follows. I go to the theatre, he follows, I lied down on the ground, he lied next to me, I ran to the balls areas, he ran too, even when I went to the toilet, he came in to the same toilet room WHATTT ? Of course I shoo-ed him away and I went to another toilet cubicle. I KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF YO HAHAHAHA 

So I guess it's stuck like glue or nothing then ? 

That's when I got fed up and I made friends with him. I didn't regret making friends with him, I sure didn't. 

We had happy times together, meaningful memories. He sure sticks close to me like I went to pay those girly stuff (actually I doesn't really like it but my intention was just to get rid of him) and he didn't refuse or anything, he even got more excited playing with me HAHAHAHA 

There isn't much thing I remember. All I remember was at the moment I was about to go home, he was sad. And he told my dad to bring me to play again tomorrow in Chinese. My dad just nodded because my dad doesn't really understand Chinese but he did understand what the kid is talking about (luckily he used simple Chinese) but my dad don't know how to answer (English educated hahahah) 

We didn't went again the next day eventually. We also didn't really meet each other again after that. Maybe we did meet each other on streets and supermarkets ? Maybe we go to the same church ? Maybe we attend the same club ? Or maybe we were from the same school ? Or maybe the same class ? Maybe you were the one sitting next to me or maybe a few rows apart when I'm in grade 4 or 5 or maybe now ? 

Haizzz I hope fate could bring us together and meet each other again. Maybe then I could write down a whole long blog post on what's going on in the year 2002 then hahahah, maybe boys remember things better eh ?

To be honest, I kinda regret not knowing his name and at least keep contact with him. I must really thank him for making me feel like he is my big gorgor (elder brother) at that moment. 

All I remembered is that he had this twitched up ears. I couldn't even have any idea how does he looks like now.

I do hope we could meet again one day. Who knows we could be best of friends ? 

her number was 146

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Her name became a number, her number became our name.

In 2002, the co-founders of Love146 traveled to Southeast Asia on an exploratory trip to determine how they could serve in the fight against child sex trafficking. In one experience, a couple of our co-founders were taken undercover with investigators to a brothel where they witnessed children being sold for sex. This is the story that sparked our abolition movement.

“We found ourselves standing shoulder to shoulder with predators in a small room, looking at little girls through a pane of glass. All of the girls wore red dresses with a number pinned to their dress for identification.

They sat, blankly watching cartoons on TV. They were vacant, shells of what a child should be. There was no light in their eyes, no life left. Their light had been taken from them. These children…raped each night… seven, ten, fifteen times every night. They were so young. Thirteen, eleven… it was hard to tell. Sorrow covered their faces with nothingness.

Except one girl. One girl who wouldn’t watch the cartoons. Her number was 146. She was looking beyond the glass. She was staring out at us with a piercing gaze. There was still fight left in her eyes. There was still life left in this girl…

…All of these emotions begin to wreck you. Break you. It is agony. It is aching. It is grief. It is sorrow. The reaction is intuitive, instinctive. It is visceral. It releases a wailing cry inside of you. It elicits gut-level indignation. It is unbearable. I remember wanting to break through the glass. To take her away from that place. To scoop up as many of them as I could into my arms. To take all of them away. I wanted to break through the glass to tell her to keep fighting. To not give up. To tell her that we were coming for her…”

Because we went in as part of an ongoing, undercover investigation on this particular brothel, we were unable to immediately respond. Evidence had to be collected in order to bring about a raid and eventually justice on those running the brothel. It is an immensely difficult problem when an immediate response cannot address an emergency. Some time later, there was a raid on this brothel and children were rescued. But the girl who wore #146 was no longer there. We do not know what happened to her, but we will never forget her. She changed the course of all of our lives.”

-Rob Morris

President and Co-founder

We have taken her number so that we remember why this all started. So that we must tell her story. It is a number that was pinned to one girl but that represents the millions enslaved. We wear her number with honor, with sorrow, and with a growing hope. Her story can be a different one for so many more. Love is the foundation of our name because it is our motivating drive to end the trafficking and exploitation of children. We hold true what Martin Luther King Jr. said,

“Justice at its best is love correcting

everything that stands against love.”

her story

Now go grab a pen and write down the number '146' at the back of your hand, outline it with a heart and share the picture to all of your friends, tell them to look up http://love146.org/ , it's a non profit organization that was named after her number, they give holistic care to survivors, providing a place for them to call 'home' and professional care to rebuild their life.

This salute is to
#REMEMBERTHEGIRL

stop human trafficking

情绪化 ?

假期又来咯，这么一算 大概有 24 天的假期吧 ? 呵呵，说实话 这好像是有始以来最长的年中假期 哈哈。假期在下个星期三开始，但我觉得我从今天开始放假了，原因是去学校也没上课，又没得拿考卷或什么的。

最近都在考试，唉 老实说 我没放太大的期望或要求。我好像都是那种 burn the midnight oil 的人，总是最后一分钟才读书。

这次比较死的还是历史吧，少了30 % 呢。唉，只求及格吧 ! 

其他的都还好吧，这次物理应该是我比较担心的科目呗，我总是没什么信心可考到很优越的成绩，我好多地方都在乱写，算着算着应该能及格，不知几分而已。接着就是生物学吧，第一张纸和第三张纸都不错，第二张有一题比较马虎，始终这还是我上次考得最不满意的一科。

最满意的科目应该有两个吧，也就是化学和高级数学吧。高级数学会令到你有点吓到吧，我的高技术学并不好哟。只不过这次很满意，因为我花了很多心思及时间在它身上。虽然我只觉得第一张纸容易 几乎全部都会回答，第二张纸却只有几体超级有把握，别的都在乱搬 乱用 formula。但至少我尽力了。上次的高级数学，我考试时 考着考着真的很想哭，一题都不会的情况 都在乱填。拿了 58 分，好像拿成绩从来没那么惊吓过，好开心。这次考试 同样的情况发生了 也好想哭，但这是开心的哭 真的好感动，我竟然会做。这几天来的温习都没白费了。
我并不知道这次的高级数学会拿几分，但无论如何我都会很满意 因为我知道我尽力了
化学是我第二最不担心的科目 (高技数学排第一) 也是我画第二多时间的科目 (排第一还是历史) 也是一样 考试试拿到考卷 翻开一看 好兴奋 好满意。

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考了 3 个星期的试 该轻松下了。嗯 要去越南了，这国家应该会比较好玩，始终这种国家好多奇奇怪怪的钥匙圈及纪念品 我好像长不大的小孩 哈哈哈。

淘宝订购的东西也快到了。到时得努力弄好我两个好姐妹的礼物了，好兴奋呗 :D 希望会成功吧 始终我的美术并不可靠 赫赫

最经用了妈妈的好友的淘宝户口买了几件衣服，只有中国人民才开得了淘宝户口，要不我平时都用代购买的。当然代购的 conversion rate 都比较高。但还会继续在淘宝购物的原因是那边卖的东西这边都很难买到 而且都比较便宜 conversion rate 再高也值得了 哈哈哈

买了几件衣服，多数都是妈妈选的。我并不是什么爱买衣服的人，所以衣服那些都是妈妈买的。只有一件 I mean 三件是我选的，还千咛万嘱咐一定要到。那就是我们三姐妹的第一件姐妹一起有的衣服

很可爱吧 ? 再过多两三个星期妈妈的朋友就来了，倒数着哟 !

或许你会发现到，我会因一件非常小的事感到非常兴奋 感到无比的快乐。同样的我也会因一件非常小的事感到伤心难过。或许这是物理里说提到的 sensitive 吧 ? 我们对小事而感到敏感。

有时 我会自己放空想，这么一想 会想整个小时。从这个 speech bubble 到那个 speech bubble，傻傻地想这个想那个，幸好我们人说想的东西不会被说出来 要不我多么显得像自闭者啊 哈哈哈。

想着的东西 多数都是一些开心的事。

但当我在写日记 写有关比较不愉快的事时，我多数都在想一些不怎么愉快地东西，写着写着都会觉得好不忿气。

最近 有了部落格后，开始把一些心里想的事也往这里抛了。嗯，最近也开了个 twitter account，为了要写一些较短，较 random 的事下来。

有些时候，我总觉得自己非常了解自己。但在我自我介绍，大家问我我是个怎么样的类型的人，我才知道 我并不了解自己

总觉得，我都活在自己的世界里。

Lifeless life

Mid terms are over, and heyyy here comes holiday ! xD

24 days of holidays start from now, actually it isn't really 24 days, it's more of self approved holiday. As for tommorow and this coming Monday and Tuesday, we still have school, however I find it boring after going today as the teacher wouldn't bother to teach or do anything, she wouldn't even care if we run away HAHAHAHA. So yeah, I guess there is nothing hope left for getting my exam papers soon :( oh yeah don't blame me for being stupid after 24 days :P

So what I would be doing for this 3 weeks ++ would mostly be tweeting (heyyy I've got a private new twitter account just for me to spam stuff about my life ahahahaha, yeapp I'm childish), playing the piano, Facebook-ing, oh I'm going to Vietnam too, having my cousins coming over, chatting, and yeahh luckily there is some going out sessions if not i would probably sound like me locking myself in a room or maybe a cage HAHAHAHA. Oh of course I would be blogging time to time.
Ehh, I'm also waiting for the stuff I bought in Taobao to reach ahahahaha and I'm also going for a kidney transplant charity run on this coming Saturday. Need to walk for 5 km, phew I hope I could make it

Nothing much ehh

Aiguuu, let me think of something more than I would blog it soon :D

天真的一句 我爱你

前天是母亲节
在此 祝世上所有的母亲们，母亲节快乐 :)

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最近，都在考试着，好像都没什么时间 ...

考试 ? 唉，真的有时觉得自己给自己太大的压力了。应该的，应该的，始终自己总是那种临时抱佛脚的性格。搞得半夜三更得醒来赶夜车。的确前几天已经有在开始读了，可是总是没信心

ｉ ｗａｎｔ ｓｏｍｅ ｃｏｎｆｉｄｅｎｔ

上个星期六没去考试，去了教堂守安息日。历史一 零分了，应该可以及格吧 ? 只希望历史二加历史三 会多过 40分。不然真的得去撞墙了 哈哈哈。我相信我不及格的话，我应该会每天读书吧 ? 这一生中，好像没有一个科目是不及格的咧 ...

星期六，我们拍了个短片 献给爸爸妈妈的。为了要感谢他们 对我们所付出的一切。

要说出自己父母的口头禅 然后再说出自己的感言 然后再说 我爱你 ♥︎

说实话，起初我觉得会很 awkward 尤其说感言的时候。真的想推了他。

但 我现在不怎么后悔。除了我小时候之外，我好像好久没对父母说 I love you 了。

有时真想回到小时候，小时候从没 丢脸 或 awkward 等之类的字。我爱你 几乎是天天会告诉妈妈爸爸的话。对父母亲嘴，抱抱等 都毫无尴尬的感觉。以前，可以肉麻到 做一张满都是 我爱你 的卡片 送给爸爸妈妈。其是不是肉麻，而是天真的爱。

说到爸爸妈妈的口头禅时，想了好久。最终 竟发现父母亲的口头禅 好像是我们俩的花名。

爸爸 都爱叫哥 honey，叫我 sweetpea

妈呢 ? 都叫哥他的名字 (christian name)，叫我 mei mei

叫哥他的名字是因为我小时候是叫哥 gor gor 的，叫着叫着 突然有一天 我听见一个人叫我哥他的名字。那种感觉好特别 所以就改口 叫他他的名字了 哈哈哈。随着 妈妈也这样叫他了。

感言是说 感谢天父给我一对这么好的爸爸妈妈。常常在我伤心难过时 支持我 鼓励我。在我成功时 与我一起分享那份快乐。

我爱你

双亲节快到了咧，趁着此机会 对父母说一声 我爱你吧

我相信他们 一定会喜欢