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I'm back after a week or so :DDD
Lately I've been always wishing that it would be Saturday (yesterday, to be precise). It really is a kick in the ass lately during school days. As yeahhh, I've made my mum angry :/ and her mood doesn't goes good and I know that only to church would make her happier LAAAAAAA ~ I'm really really high :P
The reason I made her angry is that she scowled only me when I didn't drink water WHATTT ? Of course I've just woke up from my nap, and my mood goes really bad and I seriously cannot tolerate the unfairness and I started complaining that she doesn't say anything about my twin brother. He. Is. My. Twin. Brother. Why. Should. You. Scold. Me. Only.
That's how everything start. And she started scolding me and she banned me for playing iPad. FINEEE this is so seriously unfair. So I started talking back that she is seriously unfair. And it doesn't turn out a good ending always when she really got mad :/
So fine, you could see me like disappeared from Earth for like a hundred days (like a week only actually)
So yeapp, I go to school. I come back from school. Somemore I'm sick. WHATT. So I couldn't get any medication as mummy got angry and she wouldn't talk to me so yeahh, I took my medication from my dad and some are from my own knowledge but of course mums knows the best so yeah, I'm still in those half alive situation in school. Always afraid that I would spread my sickness to others as I would always cough when I talk something. THAT SUCKS :( so yeah, back to come back from school, I do homework, then I sleep and usually I would play piano for awhile (my favourite songs only) and I would go play iPad aka online ! However, I couldn't play iPad since I'm banned for it and since my piano exam is around the corner (March) so I'm physically forced to practice those annoying and boring exam songs.
To make mummy angry is always the worst thing ever. She wouldn't care to talk to me. So yeah, from morning or I could say dawn. I'm wide awake. Not really though, it's like I would wake up from my dreams every hour as I'm really really afraid that I would wake up late as when I'm extremely exhausted (I'm in those case lately) I wouldn't even hear my alarm clock ringing. And since my mum wouldn't talk to me, I'm extremely afraid she wouldn't wake me up :( When school is over, my mum would fetch me. So yeah, I'm also afraid that she wouldn't fetch me and I would be forgotten. The next thing is when in the car, she wouldn't say anything. Imagine that silence :/ When I'm at home, no one talks to me and sometimes I would start thinking myself since no one would like really talk to me. So yeah, I always build a castle in the air lately. And yeah, what I do mostly (for this week) is exam pieces, exam pieces, exam pieces. you could imagine how many times the songs repeated in my house. When it's time for tuition, I'm extremely afraid she wouldn't fetch me there or fetch me home. And when there is curriculum in school. I couldn't tell her when it ends so yeahh, I could just join those that I joined last week. When I deadly need to online (I can't live without online-ing kayy), I would quickly just on for a few minutes. And I seriously couldn't reply or do anything to my notifications. All I know is that who is finding me. So yeahh I'm being quite an ignorable person lately. Of course all the above worries is like nothing as my mum did them all :') I mean those 'extremely worried' stuff :) Oh yeah since I couldn't play iPad and I felt bored, so I played my game boy TROLOLOL. Its like I haven't touch it for years and due to the boredness I have, I went to play every single game of it. And trust me, I couldn't understand why would I live it so much last time. It's so boring :/
This life sucks
I'm bad sometimes in talking back. But pleaseeee, can I at least have like fairness ? Could you at least look at what good things I do then always looking at my dark side ? Why would you always think that my brother is better than me ? The only thing I won is that he always disturb and bully me. But you seldom scold him also. Every time, I feel lazy, you would complain a lot. When my room is messy, you complain too. What about him ? :(
Can someone on earth actually could understand me ?
I've been facing serious problems lately. Like I couldn't do much stuff I enjoy doing. So the happiest day I had this week is actually on Saturday at the moment when someone actually thinks that I'm awesome although it's just a simple thing that I know how to play harmonica. But still I enjoy him saying that. Like finally someone can see my bright side in this week and that someone could appreciate me the way my mum usually do. Is not that some other people doesn't praise me, is that he praise me sincerely. That feeling arhhhhh. Thank you so much :))
Life is not fair but you can at least try to make it a little equal
Luckily this week is finally over :D
Maybe I am selfish and hard hearted, I don't know
I truly hope that this would be the last time I would talk back to my mum and this would also be the last time this thing happen.
Never ever again