Friday, 26 September 2014

sixteen

The night right before 25/09/2014 I was feeling truly unwell, somehow caught a flu and yeah my body feels so tired. Was planning to count down for it - my sweet sixteen. But no I felt too drowsy to do so that all I did was to whisper a short wish and hum a song to myself. 


Having to know that I've been sixteen years on Earth but that doesn't really make me extremely excited that night before. I actually wonder why hahaha. Because usually I would be in that extremely-excited-mood that I would go cuddle myself up early that night, hoping that I could wake up earlier during my birthday hahahah. To be honest, yes I did countdown those days left to d-day a month back like what i usually did every year. But I somehow gone miscounted right after the camp and I gave up counting since then as I went sick like those on and off, on and off type. Hahaha maybe it's the lovesick of camp I had or maybe I've not been hundred percent cured but I still go on being too psychotic then.
So yeah really going honest that I'm actually not in the birthday mood. I even only realized that my birthday is around the corner only on last Friday - which is not the usual me lol. 


The day before my birthday, I came home really tired after being with a bunch of church members. And somehow that day I got some birthday wishes and people singing birthday songs for me. All those early birdies hahaha. The songs are meaningful to me larhh although its just the typical birthday song but yeahh every year it's just my parents singing it to me and my bro larhh, didn't really expect that I would get that song personally or in a group from other people. 

So yeah I got really tired and I'm actually rushing my chemistry assignment that night. And yeah after all that, it's already 11:20 p.m. It's actually always my dream to wait till 12:00 and be the first ever person at the first second wishing myself hahaha. A bit psycho orhh. It's like I thought I seriously THOUGHT I would succeed this year. But I actually forget that every year at this moment of time, I'm either sick/not in the mood/exams/something weird happen. So it's like the usual larhh, fail again hahahaa. But at least I did wish myself and sing myself my favourite song at the moment before I went into my dreamland.


Yeah so here comes the BIG DAY. A bit narcissist calling it that myself huh ? xD 
I actually have the thought of not going to school as I'm really exhausted and mucus is flowing out from my nose non stop hahaha and it seems so disgusting ewwwwww. Like very behdahan larh, so kakacaucau there, like I was thinking like zomakgai having such weird circumstances on my big day larhh, abuden orhh my life would be much easier larhh. HAHAHAHA FEELING SYIOK HAVING ALL FOUR OF THE CAMP'S GROUP NAME TOGETHER IN A SENTENCE. kay kay ignore me hahaha.

At last, I went to school like after I kept on dragging my time in the bed unwillingly to wake up. Like if you all see one siao zha bor walking lifeless-ly into school gates with that face that FACE, yeap that's m-e. 
Langsung no mood right ?

And it's like everyone started wishing me happy birthday O.O like I was in the blurry mood of me just  waking up. Like this is how the siao zha bor look like, like thisssss



Yeapp let me skip all those parts of me being unconscious HAHAHAHA UNCONSCIOUS LOLOLOLOL. 

So yeah I received my present from them larhh. Really unexpected larhh. Like once I heard the word 'box' I actually linked to some other stuff, but I kept on telling myself no. And when one of you all blurted that something out, at that moment I was like SERIOUSLY WON'T LIKE THAT GUA, SO HARD TO MAKE LERHH THAT ONE. Because I think I didn't tell you all before that I'm going to find one day doing it gua (?) I feel so guilty ya know. That's why I got so stress on opening it LOLOLOL. 

And it's like once I open it, I must admit the gift is really a SWEET sixteen. I like how it's being themed as cloud, which is also my name and the favorite symbol I would use to describe myself. Like pheww seriously heng you all didn't really do what that person said larhh, if not i don't know how to accept that gift sia. That who arhh, xia si ren merhhh ? 

Like horses are what particularly became my theme for my fifteenth birthday and this year - cloud. Both also my favourite living things (?) maybe cloud's a natural phenomena.
All the wishes is really special to me. All really touching and yeahh I still didn't cried though :P And yeahh the present's overall, it's kinda creative to have such concept.
And yeahh those pictures omgoshh -.- I must say I look the nicest in the pic with panda. The others all like didn't wake up like that larhh HAHAHHA. Really unexpected that you all took the picture for that purpose larhh, should tell me marhh so I could at least look nicer HAHAHAHAHAHA.


Ohh actually I did cried that day, I just shed a tear larhh. I was playing piano - my favourite song. And all those feels came in. Like it's really something BIG to have best friends. Not much people have long lastings one. It's hard to find those that could actually have heart to heart talk and those that you doesn't feel that it matters even if you actually have your image all thrown away. If it's not a problem to cry infront of them and to also shout all those unsactisfactory and judgement on others at them, remember them and cherish them, they are not those simple people in life, they are your best friends. It's really very touching to have they all as my best friends larhh. Like that day my mum told me that they were actually planning to have a birthday dinner with me until they went to asked my mum about it since May, I was really shock you know, like so early they'd already been planning for it. Like what can I say ? It's like some kind of sultan's birthday like that, having to be prepared since day 1. What can I ask for me, there ain't any perfect friends in life, but they are more than that. How could people possibly accept my flaws ? My temper ? My weird mood ? My everything ? You all never ever did complain about that to me, at least to me larhh. Between you all idk larhh. But it's already enough, as long I know that you all are good to me and you all are like so asdfghjkl important to me can already.
Like I have all those people around me who actually love me. 



This time I also got really touched that although my dad was in overseas but yeahh my mum prepared a cake for us. My mum insisted on us to scoop ourselves ice creams and we were all lazy as its so hard to scoop em up. Like need muscles sia. So then when my brother opened the fridge, it's like deng deng deng deng OUR BIRTHDAY CAKE. It'd been always fun to have a birthday cake and my mum calls us 'can't grow up' hahahaah. But yeahh what's a birthday without a birthday cake. It's a mango cake this year and it's really nice.


Okay I guess that's all for this year's sweet sixteen - 25/09/2014