Well comparing the me last year and this year, obviously I haven't grown any taller or maybe just that 1cm, I hope. Aihh didn't shrink can le lmao, get used to people calling me short alrd, even my cousins first greeting when we meet each other would be 'Still that short arhh?' SIMI SAI. Other than that, yeahh I don't remember that I was that fat last year compare to this year hahahah. Guess I have to get myself a new plan on losing weight next year lmao.
Except for those physical appearance, I find myself going into a deeper thinker this year. Like I'm not really that talkative anymore. I would really choose to think and yeahh dream. I would rather cuddle in my bed reading a novel for hours. Not to mention that sleeping is also an essential hahaha. Many things bothered me this year, from A to Z. And I've actually learnt that it doesn't make any differences telling it out, so that makes me kinda mute and went on thinking the ways to solve it. Like all those problems and sorrows turnt out to be buried deep in my heart. No one else can solve it, it's your problem not theirs. So yeah I'd spent time writing them down in my diaries. That's the only way I could get to pour all of 'em out to 'someone' that would help me remember my past and yeahh that would also make me feel better when I talk about it, you know what I mean ?
What I miss the most this year around ? I think it's the time when us cousins sit together and actually talk about the times when we were still kids or even babies. I mean we see each other growing up from a teeny weeny baby and I must say that it really is a good thing if you have cousins around your age. Really the best thing ever. Like they are our very first best friends that would last so long. No matter how many quarrels and fights we have gone through, we would just be back to how it should be the very next day or even after an hour ! Now that we've all grown up, meeting each other is like getting rarer and rarer. Twice a year is already considered lucky for us. After this time around, we wouldn't know when are we meeting up again. It's always that hard to say. Hahaha remember the times when we would cry whenever farewells, but now we would just keep it in our heart. What could we do ? That camp 20 + days ago was simply really memorable after not meeting each other for a year or so. That 4 days of camp really does help makes us closer to each other. It's all so meaningful at that split second, all of it reminds us of our childhood. Playing games together, eating together in the same table, teasing each others, all of it. Can we simply turn back time ? Or maybe make time goes faster until we meet again hahaha.
Studies actually went on quite well this year. Yeah I am always that lazy to study earlier. So what I did was I would just wait until the day right before exams, or I could say the night before exams. You see I still don't have the mood to study in the afternoons but you know shit gets real when it comes to night time and you don't know what's going on in that entire subject. Nah, I won't sacrifice much of my sleep on exams, well I will but I have that feeling and fear that I might faint or fall asleep the next day in the examination hall. So I just simply read through my notes for 3 hours ? Maybe lesser than that. Haizz lazy bump ehh ? I think that have to also thank that I actually would try to concentrate when teachers are teaching and yeahh jotting down notes from time to time although sometimes I don't even understand them. So yeahh this year's exams' results went on smooth like even more than I expected and I really have to thank God's blessings and help on that, if not I would definitely be in deep shit. Though I know it's really risky to only study at the last minute and although at times or I could say most of the time I would regret on nothing studying earlier but yeahh the study earlier thingy never happened haizz. So I guess that's my new year's resolution hahaha.
Friendship. It went on quite well although there's some problem in the beginning and the middle I assume. But I think now so far our friendship is already considered really good. Everything went on pretty well. Those gifts also did went on well surprisingly hahahaha. I think there really is lots of blogposts earlier that I wrote before and it makes me feel like I would repeat the same thing by writing here again haha. So go flip back and read larhh.
Dreams. In the coming year, yeahh I'm going to try my best to achieve the dream I've finally found after all these years. Although it may seem impossible but yeahh I've gone through all sorts of problems throughout all these years and God is always there for me and I believe I would achieve this too with His help. A dream that would help not only me, the community and God too.
Health. Thank God for His guidance and blessings for giving me such good health. Although there is a problem I'm facing now but yeahh I'm sure God would guide me in making that choice. I guess all those worries I once had is all relieved now, well at this moment, let's just see what will happen next. Well, I pray for better health in the coming year.
Church. Next year was indeed a big year on having lots of plan for the year end's Malaysia plus Singapore's Youth camp. I pray for God's guidance in giving our church the strength to make it successful and memorable and all the glory are to the Lord. Other than that, I hope I'm capable in able to help out in the sabbath school and youth club. Being the secretary in both these departments really is a brand new experience to me and it really is my first time having able to carry these responsibility.
I guess all these comes to an end now. It's always that fun countdown-ing with a bunch of church members ehh ?
Bye 2014. Hello 2015 ! Nights all.
