My hope for this year, 2017 and every following year is to be a better year than before, to gain more wisdom and kindnesss, to be a better person and most importantly to have a better relationship with my family, friends and God.
I must say I don't have any more important new year resolution than to figure out what degree to pursue after my foundation level.
2017 is somehow the year I have to make that one choice which determines what degree cert am I holding years later.
with that achieved, I would say 2017 would totally be complete.
Yeah it bothers me sometimes when I know I'm not left with much time to consider, yeap 2 more semester to be exact till I finish my foundation. Whether to be one who heals the body or the heart.
Another thing I would hope for in 2017 would definitely to be healthier in a sense to exercise more even if it is those 5 minutes indoor type. Well better than not at all flexing my body in like 10 years hahah. It makes me guilty like till the max all the time because of me studying in a medical school which that all the courses are practically related to health and trust me many many lectures actually are constantly reminding me of all the bad thing about not exercising and here am I having my butt glued tightly on chairs and beds. It's totally different from what you've gone through in primary school or secondary school. Like for all these earlier years in school, they just tell you the surface of the pros of exercising and the cons of not doing so, but here in a medical school, shit they make you sound like you might lose 20 years of youth and die of many anonymous (to me) diseases if you tend to be a lazy bum like me.
so yeah dear exercise, let me be loyal to you and please let me die peacefully after __ years
For 2017 and the future ones, please let it be smooth for all semesters. I actually start to feel the stress after attending Maths 2 briefing today. Please let me build more and more interests in everything I'm going to learn in the future so I can work on smoothly. For this sem in paricular please let me have extra love for Physics 2 omgosh, please don't give me more nightmares of what your twin gave me.
Oh and yeah in 2017 I should learn to be more approachable hahaa approachable in a way people wouldn't find me all anti social and those typical very uncool kid (although I'm not very cool) until they don't want to make friends with me HAAHAHA. Yeap, let me be more sociable and kind and at least not struggle when there's a need to form groups for any assignments or projects.
Well hmm actually tbh, today we have to form 2 different groups for our Math's Project and SCTL, one of 4 pax/group and another of 6 pax/group. And I was like whatttt because our lecturer restricts us to only being able to choose groupmates from our class. And everyone else in my class have their own squad/gang or whatever you call it. And I'm literally the only emo shit who sits in the class right infront with whoever who wants to sit with me,
Well actually not that sad la, I do have close friends but they are all in other classes and my housemates all also my friends and in my class what. But yeah I have to be quick before they forget my presence LOLOL.
But yeah I started to get nervous and all because I don't want to end up having no group or being put in a group of people of us all not super comfortable with each other. And then I started asking around and yeah they actually let me join their group HAHAHAH they don't know how to reject me. Nola the 4 pax/group is that they already promised to let me join their group earlier but later got many people wanted to join this group la but too bad full already hahaha, while the 6 pax/group one like 2 groups approached me on whether should I join them.
And later towards the end our 6 pax/group group is still short of two members, I started asking around for anyone to join in our group somemore and that's when many people ask me whether I want to join their group. Very famous like that right. Actually no, I think the reason is that I always borrow them homework to copy and they might assume I'm smart (a better way of complimenting myself) or maybe because they assume that me being the kid without any friends in my class would have a hard time to find groups HAHAHAA
But yeah I need to be more friendly because for all these while, the first step when making friends, 70% is by the other side la seldom is that I approach them one, I don't know why but sometimes I feel bad also for having my kinda introvert character which restricts me from doing such thing.
well, nevermind la next time I join you all's group.
I must say I should also be more focused on my studies as in to leave my personal life aside when it comes to studies (especially before exam week :c ) I actually find myself having a normal life without any worries during normal lecture weeks, and when it comes to exam weeks or one week before exam, boom shit happens and guess what I would spend hours thinking of what to do even though I know I could do nothing to help.
Typical example is that last year when I'm having my sem 2's midterm, both my close study buddies quarrel, and trust me I spent nights feeling emo and procrastinating, heng I ace pretty well during that exam. And there's when I'm having my sem 2's final, I started thinking about all the words he have told me and feeling all anxious of things might happen.
To think about it, I think I tend to take anything related to human relationships too seriously. I should learn to leave things aside when it comes to important events like this, like I should always set my priorities first.
Oh yeah speaking about human relationship, 2017 please give me more true friends because I can get so naive sometimes that cheating me can be so easy HAHAHA. Yeah my heart can get all easy and soft that I can instantly borrow you my assignments to copy (the one I spent like 3 days on) with just minimal persuasion, yeah please get rid of all these friends for benefits from me.
And I hope that I would be wiser in managing my feelings, as in by the end of the day I don't want to feel like we're wasting each other's time. To love or to be loved, no matter which way, I don't want anyone to feel hurt.
Yeah please let 2017 be a year of joy, hope, wisdom and love. Please let there be no more major frustration, failure or heart broke. Let tears of sadness be tears of joy and last but not least let me be an individual with decent character to be more like Jesus.