medical microbiology and immunology B+ general pathology B+ general pharmacology B+ endocrinology system A musculoskeletal system B+
jan 2018 - july 2018
I guess I have slowly entered the phase of adaptation and acceptance.
I start to get a little less nervous over examinations since they happen every 2 weeks or sometimes almost every other day, I start to tell myself that I can make it true, I start to get used with the packed schedule. it just seems like everything is on the right pace. I guess it all reaches a point where I start believing. Maybe they were right where you don't actually know what is going on when you are in the basic medical science block and that you start to relate yourself as a medical student only when you enter systemic blocks (?) There's so much things to understand and that can help relate around you, these are times when you start observing humans, and that slowly you get to know that there are certain differences in them that could lead you to have a list of differential diagnosis and questions to ask to rule out certain disease.
I must say that I start enjoying med school, I know this does sound mad with the time all being limited and stress level always hitting up the roof.
With that being said, there are times where I really would question myself about my capability, those are nights where I have an entire week of nightmares and constantly sleeping really late at night. I guess the biggest fear I am having now is that I would forget crucial knowledge that I would really need in the future as a doctor, okay maybe it's every medical students' fear. I guess that's how professional exams come about to constantly refresh your past medical knowledge *sobs.
If you'd ask me whether medical school is easy, I wouldn't say it's easy as there is almost half of the batch resiting their exams BUT neither would I say that medical school is difficult, as there is only one that repeats the entire year (yeap you ain't hear me wrong, if you fail two subject in a year, off you go in repeating the entire 2 semesters from scratch) in my batch.
But if you'd ask me if I regret or will regret my decision, I would undoubtedly say that I think this is one of the best decision I had ever made in my life (please let the next be in saying I do or the in the choice making of which specialist that suit me).
Even if one day I couldn't make it to be a good doctor, at least I have experienced God's grace and also I did tried to overcome my limit and to achieve the 'impossibles'.
- End of Year 1 -