The festival I like and the type of people I love

December it finally appeared ! My favorite month out of all the others

The reason why I like it is that it consists of my favorite festival and its CHRISTMAS ! :D And also not to forget the complete month of holidays for me to spend :D

So yeah I'm currently sick with flu, both running nose and blocked nose. And I also have coughing which is the suffering part as it also comes with sore throat.

Time to write something fun and ignore all this boring and kill joy stuff.

Qing Qing's birthday is tomorrow xD Happy birthday little girl. I guess I would call her to wish her tomorrow, see how my mood flows HAHAHAHA 

This post would be boring as I really don't know what to write. It will be just some randomies that pops out in my brain lol

I guess I would be touching on blur people this time HAHAHAHA I'm really random sometimes, really.

Honestly, I like blur people. The reason is that they are loyal and easy going, that's it. They do things simple, they would never make things complicated so is all sorts of relationships, goals, educations etc. So you could totally trust on them :D 

Let's start one by one, if not you would never understand me.

See, blur people please people all the time, why say so, because they don't know what you want. So just tell them straight. And trust me, they would buy for you as they couldn't think of any other ideas.

Furthermore, you would be happier living with them, as you can see, they seldom know what you want. So if they really give you a surprise on buying you a gift, you won't put any higher expectation, what cares the most is that you had given an effort. So anything would make you happy HAHAHAHA. Imagine if he was a smarter guy, you would definitely give tons of hints on what you want and the end result is he bought something you didn't expect, what would you feel ? What if he bought you the exact stuff you hinted him ? I believe you would feel that he didn't think any further or put in more effort for it.

Number 3, blur people is people who understand you the most when you are sad (this doesn't include your family members, best friends of course) not to say understand is that they are easier to talk to. As they wouldn't ask any further and as they are blur and if they are kind, they would just listen and they would always think that you are the right one as you seems so sympathetic to them. Imagine speaking to a smart person about your feelings, they would give you tons of comments, like seriously.

Number 4, they get happy easily, blur is simply innocent. They are like little kids, simply satisfied of little things. They would never expect for more.

Other than that, they are cute HAHAHAHA just my own opinion on this statement. Honestly, when they look at you with their head a little bit slanted to the left or right, at that moment your heart would melt and a message would immediately comes into your mind saying that they are cute. 

Number 6, being with blur people could avoid lots of quarrels. I'm serious. They wouldn't usually even start an argue with you. Even if it already started, it could be solved almost immediately as blur people are understandable people :)

Oh yeahh, honestly, you should really listen to blur people's advice as they are kinda blur and sometimes they would tell you and advice you straight. Unlike some people, they would talk all about this and that, the pros and cons, blahblahblah only they tell you their opinion.

Furthermore, blur people is usually smarter than you thought. They are clever and talented, trust me. I have met tons of 'legendary' people and most of them are blur (I'm talking about pure clever people not those who do things very cunningly). That's why they would tell you tips on how to score in your exams too yo

Number 9, they would never make you feel uncomfortable as they usually are those that fits people easily. Like they would open a topic to chat about easily. You would never feel awkward and unusual being with them even in any kind of circumstances. They would also be so blur that whatever thing you ask them to do, they would do HAHAHAHAHA I'm not bullying anyone, is that they are really helpful (: 

Other than that, they are pure. They are true living people. They do everything sincerely, they will never think of anything that harm people. 

I guess that's the 10 reasons lol. Some of them are related sia, I'm so sorryy as I'm really tired due to the side effects of the medications I've took. 

Btw, they are all my self opinion, I hope you all don't mind. If there is any grammatically error or facts error, i apologize too :3

Happy last day of November by the way

Have fun :) oh btw wish me luck on my PMR results. I just hope that I will get what I really deserve :))

Once

Choices it could be change from time to time. In my opinion, choices can be determined by the character, event, interest, mood and the people around them.

"Win, if you had a choice to go to our house or to visit Kev and Kel's house, which will you choose ?"

"Ermm, I guess I would choose to go to your house,"

"Aww, that's touching,"

"What if you were given a choice to go to my house or their house, which will you choose ?" 

"Your house,"

"But why ? I thought you all were... best friends ?"

At that moment, I don't know how to answer him.

Yupp, we were once best cousins, best friends. But something cruel snatch our relationship and broke it into a million pieces that could not be fix back again unless... unless you change your character.

We knew each other since we were born. We grow up together, we did almost everything together. 

Going back to their house every year is our tradition. Although we see each other almost once a year, which is quite long, we still didn't feel very awkward, of course a little awkward at first, but then we would talk to each other almost immediately the next minute. Distance of time and place would never keep us apart until last month... Everything changed. I do hope it's temporary, I do hope I see you wrong, I really do...

You spent all your time playing computer. You wake up, the first thing you do is to play computer, nothing could stop you, apparently nothing. You would play till lunch time, dinner time. In between, nothing stops you. You play till my mum calls you to do some healthy activity like go jog in the park or whatsoever, you did, so that's the only time we played together. After an hour, you continue your good old job, playing computer. 

I tried to lie to myself, I try to tell myself it's fake. You had been such great to me. Last few blogs, I wrote about you all, I really hope it could be a good ending, I really do. FYI those are true, but those are the past, not present :x

You were once my best friend. But now, you were just a stranger, a total stranger to me.

Two weeks ago, I went to Sabah. And me and my bro spent most of our time playing with our two-years-younger cousin. It really is fun. It's like you are the one that could replace him. Although we were playing computer, we multiplayer it, and guess what, we played together. Those feelings, those relationship, is what he gave us way back then. 

A few days ago, I dreamt about you being the old you. The old you playing with us. I truly believe it's real, or I could say I try to make myself believe. When I woke up, I knew it, you wouldn't change, you had been so addicted to comp that you would never change. It's just a dream. I miss you, the old you, the new one sucks.

I'm not being bad or what to my two-years-younger cousin, is that we meet each other once in a blue moon. And finally a few days ago, after all sorts of thinking I've made a choice that I knew it was fair and square. If I had the chance to choose, I would go back to Sabah every year. I would rather give up my trip to their house and go to Sabah. 

I appreciate all these year that they had never fail to make me happy, I'd also appreciate all these years of joy and patience he had gave me. But still I'm sorry, Win Win thought me lots of thing, he had gave me pure joy, courage and everything. He had always catch bugs that I want to know and see. He had never fail to say yes. He followed me all the way to the beach just to let me play. He had never give up answering all those childish questions I asked. The most important thing is, he had never change into someone I don't know, someone I don't feel comfortable being with.

One of the quickest blog I wrote. Spent around 5 minutes on it

One day, we will meet again

Farewell the moment when he shook my hand and smiled at me. I swallowed back the tear that was about to flow out from my eyes. We will see each other soon, very soon...

12th of November, the day I reached this wonderful place. 13th of November, the day I reunite with my long lost cousin HAHAHAHA I shouldn't say that, it should be the cousin I haven't seen for years. The last time I came here is when I'm primary 5, the last time I saw him is when he visited me in KL two years ago. Yeah he is still someone that is long lost from my life.

We played from Kota Kinabalu to Kundasang then to Kudat. Still we aren't satisfy. Gosh, who will ? It's just a couple of days of fun :( That few days of fun are so asdfghjkl precious, that is really what I called cousin spree xD

On the 21st of November, I officially left Kudat for this Sabah trip. I will definitely go back again, trust me. That night, we said goodbye. I always hate farewells. I usually can't bear it and will cry in my room or somewhere the next second. But this time, he made me laugh before I go. He gave me a bow and he held out a hand asking for a handshake. I shook his hand nervously, afraid that I would feel sad or maybe cry for this leave. I guess he must have understood it that he looked at me and smile and bye is the last word I heard from him that day.

On the 22nd of November, we went back to Kota Kinabalu. Our flight back to KL is on the 26th of November, the reason why we left Kudat that early is that there is a evangelistic talk which extend a few days in KK (short form for Kota Kinabalu). So for all of our convenience, we went back earlier to listen to it. Actually I was quite disappointed for leaving Kudat that early :( Not that I don't want to listen to the talk. It's that we usually go Sabah or I could say Kudat for a total month and not just two weeks T^T Furthermore, going back to Sabah will only happen once in a blue moon. Unlike Singapore, I usually go there to meet my cousins every year, sometimes even twice or trice a year. Honestly, if you had give me a choice to go to Sabah or Singapore, I'd rather choose to come back to Sabah.

So yeah, on the way back to Kota Kinabalu, I spent my time thinking of those 9 days we spent together. Wimven Chu, we call him Win Win since he is a baby, thought me tons of stuff and also gave me lots of memories.

I bet whenever I hear the finger snapping sounds, it will definitely reminds me of you, the way you never give up in teaching me how to do it.
I bet every now and then when I fall down and hurt myself, I would think of the way you look at the wounds on my palm and sympathy me by telling me to put ointment on it when I reach home later, although I said never mind but you still had that sympathetic look saying that it looks painful.
I bet whenever I think of art, I would think of you, as you are the only one that had the same drawing and painting methods as me that we both usually fail to create an artistic artwork.
I bet whenever I think of Chinese, I would think of you, how could you barely read a Chinese character and you could study over those six years in primary school ?
I bet whenever I saw an 'alkitab' (it means Malay version of the bible) , I would think of you holding a thick book with the title alkitab, I barely know what does that means, all I know is 圣经 and bible.
I bet whenever I play minecraft and the sims 3, I would think of you, I'd played minecraft before once and honestly I gave up playing because whenever I build my house with bricks and stones and when I demolished it, it turned into a ugly piece of dirt yupp it's not that piece of greenery grass anymore so yeah I'm funny and weird that because of the ugliness I gave up playing it, I shouldn't be too perfectionist sometimes lol. I'd played sims 3 finish before, but you suggest me to play both those games and yup it's fun ! I guess I've changed a lot lately, I don't care I love it :P thank you so much for introducing me those games hahahax
I bet whenever I see a big brother feeding his little sister, I would think of you being so kind and loving to your little sister that none of us can handle her.
I bet whenever I saw fishing rods, I would think of you, making a simple promise to teach me how to fish but ended up you didn't as your dad had prepared everything nicely.
I bet whenever I had a chance to go fishing again and coincidently my fishing rod's string is tangled with other people's fishing rod's string, I would think of you and also the date 18 of November, the day that I first hold a fishing rod and went fishing ! Tangled fishing rod's string would definitely remind me of you helping me to entangle all the knots that is tangled together with those seaweeds, I would also remember that you had once made me, you and my brother's fishing rod's string all tangled together hahahax your fault this time.
I bet whenever I see a grouper fish or in Portuguese it is called as the garoupa fish, I would think of you forcing me to take that only grouper fish out of all the others, I said no, but you insisted it that at last you put it into my plate all by yourself. Win Win ahh, Win Win, why you had to be that good to me, your jiejie sometimes ?
I bet whenever I see 'Mister Potato' potato chips, I would think of you, or I could say think of us hahahahax. That day, we became so desperate in eating snacks. We asked our parents permission inletting us to walk to a nearby shop (around 100 to 200 meter ?) so we could grab some snacks. However, they said that we were going to fall sick as the weather is terrible and we were also not in a very healthy condition. Of course, we were not satisfied hahahahax. So when they leave to visit someone (lucky enough though), we planned to sneak out but my uncle is around working out something. So we were afraid that we couldn't make it back before they are back, we were also afraid that our uncle may caught us, we were also worried that your youngest sister, Qing Qing would tell our parents about it, we were also worried on how to clear the plastic package of the snack. After thinking for so long, we just straight do it without any much further thinking hahahax. We pretend to play outside in the garden or the yard, either one, idk what it's called. And halfway through, you ran out to buy the snacks. All of us can't go together, as my uncle will know and Qing Qing will definitely want to follow and she will definitely tell our parents about it Honestly, I was pretty worried as the idea and plan are both mine and yours, my bro doesn't even want to interfere with it. I am really really afraid that you may get lost or get kidnap or whatsoever. As it will definietky be my responsibility by then. Fortunately, you came home safe, so the three of us went to a room upstairs to eat it hahahax, Qing Qing was playing some games downstairs alone. So yeah, under such hot condition, you even said that how tough to eat a packet of snacks HAHAHAHA true, true.
I bet whenever I think of engineering, I would think of you, you had invent so many stuff yourself but too bad Qing Qing broke them all :( Hahahahax, no worries, study hard and go take engineering course in the future.
I bet whenever I watch a movie online, I would think of you, you were so enthusiastic when we had to pause halfway hahahahax you would immediately ask me to play it. Hahahax you look like a little kiddo sometimes.

I bet I will never forget you, whenever I had this chance to come back here, I would and I promise I would extend the days so we could spend more time together.

The day before yesterday, you gave us a surprise, you went all the way down to KK to spend another day with us. I'm overjoyed. Really, I'm serious. We spend most of our time in the museum. Running around hahahax. We kept on repeat the sentence 'BING BANG DYSE' hahahax being childish is fun sometimes. When you said you would stay with your eldest sister, we complaint a lot. Then later only we understood that you actually wanted to buy a gift for your sister yesterday night so that you can give it to her during her birthday today. We finally understood, although we feel sad and a little unsatisfied but yeah, we shouldn't be that selfish. When we left in the car, you stood at the car porch. Looking at us, you didn't say goodbye or give us any handshake this time, that smile on your face let me know that we will see each other soon. By saying a goodbye will make us feel like there is a distant, a time and place distant that separates us. I believe that by just smiling is way better then saying goodbye.

To ten million fireflies,

I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes,

I've got misty eyes as they said farewell.

But I know where several are,

If my dreams get real bizarre,

Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar.

I'd like to make myself believe,

That planet earth turns slowly,

It's hard to say but I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,

Cause everything is never as it seemed,

When I fall asleep

Adapted from a little part of Firelflies by Owl City

Quarrels :/

Problems it always leads to quarrel :/

There is lots of problems in the Chu's family lately. Sometimes I don't understand why is people so stubborn sometimes, why is people so selfish sometimes, why is people so calculative sometimes.

My 3rd uncle got stroke 8 months back. Because of that, quarrels happen between in law's family and our family :/ I'm really on my nerves now, they are like so inconsiderate -.- They ask us to do this do that and what they do is just sit and watch :/ Always complaining, saying that it's all Chu's family responsibility to take care of my uncle. Money, energy, care, everything our problem. What about them ?

They had the money in the bank, they had the money we have given him, so what they give ? They don't want to use it, they still dare to say they are facing shortage of money.

Energy, we had tried our best, furthermore, spouses do vow before during their marriage that they will take care of each other no matter what happens right, so they should. When he isn't married yet, we got nothing to say. So now, all we can do is to give financial and all sort of support what, what you expect ? All of the 10 brothers and sisters in Chu family also have their own family what, what you expect, you think we should give up our family and go and take care of him 24 hours ? We could help, he can come over to our house but the way you talk like you are going to give up taking care of him, like you are going to forget him forever.

We tried our best by persuading him to change a doctor, go for all sorts of physiotherapy, but you all don't want. Stroke is something that cannot wait. The longer you wait, the more it couldn't be cure.we persuade him, you don't like. Now what ? You all ask us to borrow you all money, we already did.

This time we come back to Sabah, you ask us why wouldn't we stay till next year and then take care of him. WHATTT ? Why we all got so many money go travel, why we don't want to borrow him money, what? Are you frigging blind, we diddddd. And furthermore we go travel, we use our own money what, is that your problem ? We didn't borrow money from you all what.

We offer to take care of the children, you say we all want to snatch your children. You let the children to stay with their aunty and uncle where there is lots of little children there. You think they can concentrate in their studies ? They will surely help to take care of those babies right ? Energy ? We gave them ? We offer to help you all to take care of those children, you don't want.

I'm tired of all this drama. I'm really tired...

Oh yeah, if you find this blog post selfish or whatsoever, ignore it and get lost

Try walking in our shoes

Just a dream ...

Dreams I've been having heaps of dreams lately.
Not dreams to achieve, the dreams I'm mentioning in this blog post are dreams that people usually have at night.

Dreaming about exam results and studies are truly awful :( I remember dreaming about me myself in the examination hall taking my UPSR test when I'm standard 6. It's terrified. I remember the period of time I had this dream is already after that major exam aka UPSR. I don't want to have that feeling of exams again, it's horrible. So I bravely stood up and raise my hand. The examiners came over and I told him that I had my UPSR exam not long ago already. The teacher looked at me with confuse. And he told me to keep calm and concentrate on the current exams first.

So yeah I woke up sweating and then after some time only I understood that it was just a dream ...

As for this PMR examination, I dreamt a lot of times. And I must really emphasize the word A LOT.
I dreamt about me going late to school when I'm having my history exam and science exam. I also don't understand why that there is two papers of history papers and only one science paper. It should be the other way round actually. I'm clearly remember that the reason that I'm late is because I'm in a world that is totally different, the route to school is no longer there, it's like we are in a totally different world.
Because of that, I haven't done any of the examinations that day.

I also ended up awake from my dream, sitting on my bed, thinking thru and fro, them I understood that it's just a dream. The next thing I did is to prepare myself for my history and science exams

I also had this dream not long after my PMR exams. I dreamt about my PMR mathematic examination being so frigging hard. It's like there is 8 marks for a questions. Paper 1 and paper 2 are combined into a thin sheet of exam paper. There is only 8 objective questions and 10 subjective question. We had only 1 hour to answer all of them. And yeah I guess I ended up handing up my exam paper which were filled only halfway though :/

And there is where I woke up crying. And after some time only I understood that it is only a dream.

Yesterday, I dreamt about me a day before having a Malay language composition exam. I were truly screwed up on what to study and revise. I never like writing Malay essays. Number 1, I suck in Malay. Number 2, I only know a few Malay vocabulary. Number 3, I don't understand many Malay words. Yeah the conclusion is still I suck in Malay.  I started reading all sorts of essays, just a drift through. But I found out that I've studied not enough as I'm not facing any other exams, this exam determine my future, my life. I started feeling afraid and I started asking myself why didn't I study early ? Why should I burn the midnight oil ?

And then I woke up this morning, the first thing I saw is my youngest cousin sister sleeping beside me. By then, I understand that everything is alright, it's just a dream.

There is an analysis saying that if you don't rethink of what you had dreamt immediately after you wake up, after 30 steps of walking, you will totally forget about it. That's why I'm starting to try to forget some of those nightmares, but trust me I still roughly remember that most of them are about this year's PMR examination.

I just hope that life could be a good dream and not those nightmares I had gone through

J U S T . A . D R E A M

在乡下过得好自在 好快乐

乡下的生活 不是说了就知道 不是讲了就明白 只能说 得自己去经历 自己去尝试
这些美好的回忆得自己去创造 

我呢 在这次的假期中真的 真的获益不浅

我什么都不会 来了这里 我什么都问 
问我表弟 这是什么 那是什么
他呢从不嫌弃我幼稚的问题 都一一回答我
最可笑的是 表弟会用手和嘴巴做鸟鸣声 他会打响指
我就有点不服气 叫他教我 
他单单叫我打响指 用了大半钟 
可我呢却怎么也学不会 哈哈哈 我呢学东西就有点迟钝
他也一直叫我说 要无名指向下  要用食指大大力往下与大拇指摩擦

我呢 以前跌倒 跌伤了 流血了 就会头晕晕的 接着就会大哭
我以前就是这么的脆弱 这么的公主病
这里呢 就大大不同了
跌倒时 看到自己的手心流血了 顿时觉得好疼 好疼
眼泪都快流下来的时候 6岁表妹的眼睛好大粒的看着我
她问我痛不痛 我连忙摇头说一点都不痛 面子问题吧
13岁的表弟跌倒跌的比我严重 一点都不觉得痛 还说这是普通的了 有时跌的还更严重

我以前都会想说 要什么就去杂货店 去超级市场买
可这边不同了 这边没什么多超级市场
连买冰淇凌都不是每个地方都有
哎 虽然对我来说有点痛苦 但往好的方面想 也不错嘛
我学习到 不是什么东西是这么容易得来的
知足很重要 有时就别要求多一些
少了一些东西 并不会怎么样的

从前几年以来 我平时很少会玩电子游戏 我都比较喜欢上网
但 跟了他们后，我重新学玩电子游戏
我们都会连三连四的一起玩 有时一起合作 有时却当对方是敌人
玩得真的好开心 好想回了童年一样

来这里呢 出去玩时 也得看顾表妹
毕竟她还小 要是骂她 就觉得自己好残忍
就常常要低声下气 要哄她 告诉她 这样做是不行的
对我而言 这样做 挺辛苦的
因为我习惯管比我年纪大或与我同年龄的人
小学时 是一名巡察员 中学时 是一名班长
说话怎么也会比较凶 做事也得快
看到那些动作慢的人 都会觉得很辛苦 好像一个人做完此任务
有时 表妹的一举一动都搞得我不耐烦
但我也得继续在旁鼓励她

说到表妹 我也学到如何忍让
她呢 常常在我玩电子游戏时，把电子游戏拿掉 并自己继续玩
我非常不喜欢此行为 常常会因此生气
但也没办法 始终她是小的 并不懂事
况且 我的表弟也对她的妹妹很好
谁然常常吵架 但他终是疼爱她的妹妹
什么好吃的都留给她 我身为他们的堂姐 连这一点点的事也都行不了 这怎么行呢 ？

哦对 我们也去了附进的海边比赛
比的是谁捉的螃蟹最多
我从来都不怕任何昆虫 但这并不代表我懂得如何捉它们的技巧
虽然表弟教了我们 但里说当然的是他赢了
我们过后就在海边玩沙 建山 建城堡
我们还无聊地建了个简单且迷你型的战场给螃蟹们比赛
可那些螃蟹太温驯了 哈哈哈 我们的打战计划还是失败了

我们还常常捉小狗 小猫来玩
它们真的很可爱
刚出世不久的狗必须对它们非常斯文
它们常常因惊吓而发出哭声
表弟叫我照顾小狗的方法 该注意的有什么
看见他的一举一动 终觉得他比好细心 哈哈哈

我们常常一起看戏
一套普普通通的一个小时半的戏 可让我们用两个小时看完
我怎么说呢 我们常常看到一半 就要做这个 那个 因此 都会重看 又重看
看戏时都会吵得很 骂来骂去 说对方吵吵嚷嚷 听不清楚 哈哈哈
我们总是怎么得奇怪 得找一样东西吵才行

嗯，他们称我为堂姐 我却称他们为表弟 表妹

这个假期有他们真的很开心 很快乐

有了他们的假期 回忆中也多了份色彩

A song I like

A song to recommend... Hmmm, I must say lately I'm more into songs that are made up from musical instruments. My personal favorite is piano songs, any piano songs will do.

The reason why I like piano songs is that they could easily reflect the composer's thinkings and feelings through those pieces. He may be in a very crappy and down situation, he may be a very delightful and joyful situation, it all depends on his mood in composing one song. As for the pianist or listeners who chose that song, he must have a definite reason on picking that song, it may express his current feeling and mood, or it may reminds him some old old memories, who knows ?

As for me, I'm truly in love with the song Maybe by Yiruma. Why ? Because whenever I'm sad or angry, I would play that song on the piano. It truly calms and cools me down. I don't know why, I believe there is a little magic on that piano piece.

So yeah, that's all for now hahahahax, one of the shortest blog post in my history. Nothing much to say, just highly recommend you all to spend some time listening to it. Press the highlighted word below to listen it !

[ Maybe ]

#Off to Sabah now

A little more than friends...

There is a friend of mine. Not my besties nor my enemy, he is what I called 'a little more than friends' :)

I would not mention his name as I'm always being that anonymous. All I could say is yeah it's a 'he'

I remember seeing him always around the school or I could say that almost every day I could see him. But I'm always too shy to be the first to say hi. He does say hi to me sometimes as he knew some of my friends. 

Then suddenly one day something happen, he didn't talk to my friends anymore. I was curious, deadly curious of what's going on. I'm always curious and always eager to know what's going on. So since my friends insist not to tell me, I asked him. Yeap, I sure did as my curiosity sometimes kills me too much. But of course my shyness was still there :( So I inboxed him my question. He did answer me all my questions. I think it's not fair for both sides, as the situation is a no win no lose type. But my friends somehow won as there is some misunderstanding here and there and at last he chose not to continue fighting so he gave in. Yeapp, it started weird and awkward at first, but we became Facebook chat buddies after a few times of chatting ! 

That is how I knew him, or I could say that is how we started talking to each other.

So I started helping him in all sorts of way. We were always waiting each other to online so we could continue our conversation. I must say I did a big sacrifice (narcissist me huhas I may have a slightly chance of letting my friends know my betrayal (although it is actually not one, but they might think that way) and we would not be friends anymore. But at least, all the hard work pays me off at last ! :))

So why a little more than friends ? Because we fight and quarrel sometimes but in the next day we ended up recover too. It's like siblings relationship BUT it couldn't be also said that way as believe it or not, we never chat in real life before. The reason we hadn't chat before is not that we haven't meet each other before, is that we are too awkward to say anything. Weird and awkward :/ 

I remember us chatting about random things and we will be all funny and always laugh at each other. We chat about our family, our problems, our studies, we would chat about anything you could say on Earth xD

I remember crying infront of the computer telling him the problems I faced. I couldn't tell anyone about that as it's an friendship issue and i can't find anyone to complain to (honestly till today, he is the only one who knows that story). I seldom cry infront of someone (although you could say that we are in another world) as people always see me as the brave and tough one, so I couldn't say much things to them, no choice :( 

When i told him, he listens to me, he understands me and he told me :

"You are there for me once and I will be there for you too"

I remember accidentally calling myself stupid one time as I'm really really frustrated. He told me to keep calm and not to call myself stupid. He said that i was born awesome HAHAHAHAHA and that I'm not stupid it's just that that person that makes me frustrated caused me thinks that way, and I shouldn't as she is the one being stupid not me. He even made me promise myself to not call myself that anymore. 

I remember having a very awkward meeting with him. Just me and him. Of course all this is my plans as my friends are disturbing me and scaring me with some issues, so I told myself that this meeting could make everything clear. However when I saw him, words couldn't come, I couldn't believe that real life is so different than online chatting. We just stood there for a total 5 minutes. Yup, then I apologize to him for making him waiting and we left.

I remember us always working as a team to bully a person I don't like not him HAHAHAHAHA. I complain to him what had happened and I told him my plans and I forced him to join me HOW BAD AM I ? Luckily, none of it happened as what I actually planned HAHAHAHAHA you couldn't believe how childish and stupid it was. Every now and then when I read my diary, I will definitely laugh at how childishly I would force you by doing this and that just for my satisfactory. Happy to say that, you never fail to disappoint me, you never say no to my request.

I remember telling him he is a stranger to him :P HAHAHAHAHA He asked me why. I told him that we never chat before in real life. He was sad, LOL. I feel bad and I told him that we are very good friends in our online chatting world hahahax. He then promised to try being my real life friend. 

I remember how I bullied him. Writing all those nasty stuff to him. He didn't blame me 

and told me that he knew that I'm not that bad actually and he thinks it's a good way to release your stress sometimes. 

I remember lying him. Acting all sorts of stuffs. He do believed me :O Later, I told him it's not real. He just laugh off and said that I'm very bad. Then, I told him that I could be an actress, he said no as no one will believe me except for him hahahahax

I remember everything we did together... everything :)

Let them all be wonderful memories !

That friend of mine, not my best friend, not my enemy, he is just a little more than friends (⌒▽⌒)