"Win, if you had a choice to go to our house or to visit Kev and Kel's house, which will you choose ?"
"Ermm, I guess I would choose to go to your house,"
"Aww, that's touching,"
"What if you were given a choice to go to my house or their house, which will you choose ?"
"Your house,"
"But why ? I thought you all were... best friends ?"
At that moment, I don't know how to answer him.
Yupp, we were once best cousins, best friends. But something cruel snatch our relationship and broke it into a million pieces that could not be fix back again unless... unless you change your character.
We knew each other since we were born. We grow up together, we did almost everything together.
Going back to their house every year is our tradition. Although we see each other almost once a year, which is quite long, we still didn't feel very awkward, of course a little awkward at first, but then we would talk to each other almost immediately the next minute. Distance of time and place would never keep us apart until last month... Everything changed. I do hope it's temporary, I do hope I see you wrong, I really do...
You spent all your time playing computer. You wake up, the first thing you do is to play computer, nothing could stop you, apparently nothing. You would play till lunch time, dinner time. In between, nothing stops you. You play till my mum calls you to do some healthy activity like go jog in the park or whatsoever, you did, so that's the only time we played together. After an hour, you continue your good old job, playing computer.
I tried to lie to myself, I try to tell myself it's fake. You had been such great to me. Last few blogs, I wrote about you all, I really hope it could be a good ending, I really do. FYI those are true, but those are the past, not present :x
You were once my best friend. But now, you were just a stranger, a total stranger to me.
Two weeks ago, I went to Sabah. And me and my bro spent most of our time playing with our two-years-younger cousin. It really is fun. It's like you are the one that could replace him. Although we were playing computer, we multiplayer it, and guess what, we played together. Those feelings, those relationship, is what he gave us way back then.
A few days ago, I dreamt about you being the old you. The old you playing with us. I truly believe it's real, or I could say I try to make myself believe. When I woke up, I knew it, you wouldn't change, you had been so addicted to comp that you would never change. It's just a dream. I miss you, the old you, the new one sucks.
I'm not being bad or what to my two-years-younger cousin, is that we meet each other once in a blue moon. And finally a few days ago, after all sorts of thinking I've made a choice that I knew it was fair and square. If I had the chance to choose, I would go back to Sabah every year. I would rather give up my trip to their house and go to Sabah.
I appreciate all these year that they had never fail to make me happy, I'd also appreciate all these years of joy and patience he had gave me. But still I'm sorry, Win Win thought me lots of thing, he had gave me pure joy, courage and everything. He had always catch bugs that I want to know and see. He had never fail to say yes. He followed me all the way to the beach just to let me play. He had never give up answering all those childish questions I asked. The most important thing is, he had never change into someone I don't know, someone I don't feel comfortable being with.
One of the quickest blog I wrote. Spent around 5 minutes on it