A little more than friends...

There is a friend of mine. Not my besties nor my enemy, he is what I called 'a little more than friends' :)

I would not mention his name as I'm always being that anonymous. All I could say is yeah it's a 'he'

I remember seeing him always around the school or I could say that almost every day I could see him. But I'm always too shy to be the first to say hi. He does say hi to me sometimes as he knew some of my friends. 

Then suddenly one day something happen, he didn't talk to my friends anymore. I was curious, deadly curious of what's going on. I'm always curious and always eager to know what's going on. So since my friends insist not to tell me, I asked him. Yeap, I sure did as my curiosity sometimes kills me too much. But of course my shyness was still there :( So I inboxed him my question. He did answer me all my questions. I think it's not fair for both sides, as the situation is a no win no lose type. But my friends somehow won as there is some misunderstanding here and there and at last he chose not to continue fighting so he gave in. Yeapp, it started weird and awkward at first, but we became Facebook chat buddies after a few times of chatting ! 

That is how I knew him, or I could say that is how we started talking to each other.

So I started helping him in all sorts of way. We were always waiting each other to online so we could continue our conversation. I must say I did a big sacrifice (narcissist me huhas I may have a slightly chance of letting my friends know my betrayal (although it is actually not one, but they might think that way) and we would not be friends anymore. But at least, all the hard work pays me off at last ! :))

So why a little more than friends ? Because we fight and quarrel sometimes but in the next day we ended up recover too. It's like siblings relationship BUT it couldn't be also said that way as believe it or not, we never chat in real life before. The reason we hadn't chat before is not that we haven't meet each other before, is that we are too awkward to say anything. Weird and awkward :/ 

I remember us chatting about random things and we will be all funny and always laugh at each other. We chat about our family, our problems, our studies, we would chat about anything you could say on Earth xD

I remember crying infront of the computer telling him the problems I faced. I couldn't tell anyone about that as it's an friendship issue and i can't find anyone to complain to (honestly till today, he is the only one who knows that story). I seldom cry infront of someone (although you could say that we are in another world) as people always see me as the brave and tough one, so I couldn't say much things to them, no choice :( 

When i told him, he listens to me, he understands me and he told me :

"You are there for me once and I will be there for you too"

I remember accidentally calling myself stupid one time as I'm really really frustrated. He told me to keep calm and not to call myself stupid. He said that i was born awesome HAHAHAHAHA and that I'm not stupid it's just that that person that makes me frustrated caused me thinks that way, and I shouldn't as she is the one being stupid not me. He even made me promise myself to not call myself that anymore. 

I remember having a very awkward meeting with him. Just me and him. Of course all this is my plans as my friends are disturbing me and scaring me with some issues, so I told myself that this meeting could make everything clear. However when I saw him, words couldn't come, I couldn't believe that real life is so different than online chatting. We just stood there for a total 5 minutes. Yup, then I apologize to him for making him waiting and we left.

I remember us always working as a team to bully a person I don't like not him HAHAHAHAHA. I complain to him what had happened and I told him my plans and I forced him to join me HOW BAD AM I ? Luckily, none of it happened as what I actually planned HAHAHAHAHA you couldn't believe how childish and stupid it was. Every now and then when I read my diary, I will definitely laugh at how childishly I would force you by doing this and that just for my satisfactory. Happy to say that, you never fail to disappoint me, you never say no to my request.

I remember telling him he is a stranger to him :P HAHAHAHAHA He asked me why. I told him that we never chat before in real life. He was sad, LOL. I feel bad and I told him that we are very good friends in our online chatting world hahahax. He then promised to try being my real life friend. 

I remember how I bullied him. Writing all those nasty stuff to him. He didn't blame me 

and told me that he knew that I'm not that bad actually and he thinks it's a good way to release your stress sometimes. 

I remember lying him. Acting all sorts of stuffs. He do believed me :O Later, I told him it's not real. He just laugh off and said that I'm very bad. Then, I told him that I could be an actress, he said no as no one will believe me except for him hahahahax

I remember everything we did together... everything :)

Let them all be wonderful memories !

That friend of mine, not my best friend, not my enemy, he is just a little more than friends (⌒▽⌒)